secret projects..Are these scientifically possible

Ok, so you don't like meds. There are many people who have similar problem who have learned to live with it and not use medication.

But in the end you do realize that you think teh government is trying to make your life painful....why?

What makes you say its the government? Why you?

You need to seek medical help even if its just talking to a shrink. They can't force you to take med unless you are a danger to yourself or others.

Don't end up like all the homeless people I see in DC man, you need to realize that all your beliefs regarding this are based on feling you have, in your brain.

Of course, sadly, none of what anyone here says will help. You need to help yourself.

Look at it this way, even if what you feel is real, why not go to a shrink if they might beable to help make you feel better. If it is a conspiracy, can you stop it? At least the medical field can help you not suffer regardless of the cause.