Well, ok...I don't exactly know how much of a help I'm going to be but if you would, take into consideration this:
1. You should really not be a novice at what you do before you do it. As Tayesin mentioned...It simply not a good idea. No further explanation is
2. A friend of mine dabbled quite intricately into summoning demons. Unfortunately, it most outstandingly drove him to insanity. He too was a beginner
in his pursuits.
3. Two years ago, give or take a few months, I started just researching all the topics of demonology and pretty much every nook and cranny of the
topic. This may not happen with everyone, in fact, I truly doubt it does...but I understood it as a sign. No more than a few weeks after my immersion
into the research there were three deaths in my family. Pretty much a week apart, two uncles and an aunt of mine passed.
Now, as I said...I don't know if this happens regularly...but I did see it and took it as a "You're really not ready for the darkness that lies
ahead on the path you've chosen" kind of message. Maybe it's just how I took it. Maybe it's just a mere coincidence. But if it's not either, it
could happen to your family too.
BUT that's just my take on it, thus my two cents have been thrown to the ground at your feet. Take it or leave it, I'm just trying to help. Whatever
you decide to do, good luck.