posted on Mar, 26 2010 @ 01:31 AM
reply to post by bringthelight
I've had some issues with identifying things around me before; delusions if you must put a word to it.
I admit these happened while on hallucinogenics, but I wish to share them because you may find that they line up with how some people feel
generally.
I remember one time I was tripping really hard (sorry mods not trying to talk about drugs here but I want to share an experience), and I kept feeling
like I was urinating all over myself, I kept patting my pants and feeling them thinking they were wet - I even felt the urine trickle down my legs...
however I was sitting laying back so that would be impossible but I still thought it was happening. I was at a party and I thought everyone was
talking behind my back saying things about how I pissed my pants but no one should say anything either because they thought it was funny or they
didn't want to make me feel bad. I finally got to the point I made many people at the party feel my pants and forced them to tell me if they were
wet or not - and they weren't, ha!
However I have also have issues while sober. I suffer from bipolar, anxiety, and OCD. So you can only imagine how much trouble I've had in my life,
especially considering that I was misdiagnosed for most of my youth - not until recently did I find the correct medication to help my disorder(s).
I have had times after meditating that I was forced to see things for how they truly were, but then I began to question if what I was believing as
fact to be true or if I'm completely going crazy. I still question my sanity sometimes, but when it comes down to it I know that I am just learning
about myself and the world in all its actualities. With all the lies we live personally, and through the lies portrayed in the media, and through
others, we are forced to either accept or deny what we are hearing or being told.
I have come to the conclusion the only way to find actual truth is from within and that is as simple as it gets. YOU define what the truth is about
EVERYTHING. This is why I value meditation and my gift to be able to divulge deep into my inner workings. This is how I define my values, my beliefs
on life and death, and everything else you can imagine that makes up the human psyche.