posted on Feb, 13 2010 @ 03:25 AM
I wanted to share my experience as of late with you here at ATS , to see if any of you are feeling some of the same things within yourself...
First, I should explain that I have always been a happy go lucky person. I have always loved to laugh, always loved people, and I have never been
one to have a temper. Peaceful and playful...that was me. Now don't get me wrong... I get upset, always have, I just never really got angry...I was
happy, I cried, mad, I cried, sad, I cried, tired...you guessed it, I cried... I guess you could say crying has always been my release. Hell sometimes
I would cry for no reason other than I felt like it. But here lately.... I couldn't shed a tear if you payed me.
I feel anger rising up out of nowhere. I have moments where I just want to scream, lash out. I don't want to be around people, they annoy me... I
find myself feeling ashamed of the feelings that I have lately. Its not me...I don't feel like me.
Before any of you say its hormonal, I have my hormones checked regularly after having the left half of my thyroid removed several years ago... I
have always been one of those people that if you cried around me, I was gonna cry too, you hurt I hurt.... now I can't... I am curious if anyone else
is experiencing this change......I don't really know how to explain it totally...Something mental, psychological, spiritual....I don't know... I do
know that going to the doctor, that doesn't really give a rats rump about me is only going to result in the prescibing of some toxins.... that isn't
the answer....is it?