Hi there fellow ATSers
first of all, sorry for my rusty english... also, sometimes I'm using a dictionary so some words may look old or even not used anymore...
Before that disclaimer, let me start with my story and explain why I need some ATSers help
I had a terrible experience some weeks ago. I didn't had the guts to post it after, but I do now...
My life is a constant roller coaster. Every time it starts to look peaceful, and I reach some calm to re-start my self development, everything goes
downhill and well, I take that as it is, life facts. Anyway sometimes I've thought seriously that there's somebody/something that ruins it, for a
reason i don't know.
The last turning of the wheel was on last December, and I was very curious about that, because everything that could go wrong, went WORST!.
In one of my ATS nights, I stumbled upon this article
in a thread (it was in
Skunk Works if I don't recall it wrong) It made a lot of sense on me, so when I went to bed that day, around 5:30 AM, I started to meditate as usual,
and asked my higher self, almost joking, if there was something related to that article in what happens to me, time after time.
She always communicates with me in dreams, so I was expecting something like a weird apparition of her (she looks like an older me) saying something
weird. But no. This time the dream was the weirdest and finished in an unconscious OBE.
I was laying on my bed, and suddenly, half of it (it's a queen size one, I'm single and live alone) collapsed under me and all, mattress, blankets,
everything, slided away, to the floor. Me too. I waked up, and it was all normal again, I sat on my bed, and realized that I didn't waked up but i
was having a lucid dream (I have them so often).
In front of me there was a ball of tangled wire (at my left) and a red ball (right) floating. I took the tangled wire and said "ooh, nice, let's
build something with this!" Started to make the legs of something that looked mechanic, and then, the OBE. As the other times I've experienced it,
everything looked like my room, the lighting was the same that's here by that time (I usually wake up to college by that time)... and here's the
scary thing. I saw, in the very front of me, a big head of something that looked like a crossbreed from a beetle, a moth and a praying mantis. It was
black and silver and It didn't looked friendly in absolute (as another creatures I've meet in the astral) It tried to reach me with one of it's
scythe alike upper legs, trying to harm me. I floated back and started to pray an old prayer about the guardian angel that my grand granma taught me
when I was little, and I violently bounced back to my body. Everything looked the same here but the bug vanished.
"those are the buggers that don't let you reach your destiny, do something about or not, it's up to you" was the first thought I had when i
bounced back. I don't know if it was me or my higher self who spoke really... i was so scared... I can't recall being that scared in a lot of
It's pointless to say I couldn't reach any sleep that day.
Later I had a meeting with two of my best friends. They were scared and asked if something happened to me, I had that scared face all day... I told
them what happened, they are so skeptical about this situations, and I usually don't tell anyone I know about my trainings or the weird things that
happens to me since I was a child and a teacher scolded me because I was too old for telling my friends about fairies and things i used to see...
Since then, I just tell things like this to people who are into this... and they believed me. (I don't know if they believing me or the bug was the
I was trying so hard to reach the conscious OBE till that day... Now I just close my eyes and don't even meditate as I used to do till that success.
I know that those bugs feeds on our fear, but I can't help it. I don't know what to do, or even WHAT was that, if was something related to the
article or not...
Now... somebody had experienced something similar? Encounters with bugs like this one? What can I do to get ride of it? Call Astral's Truly
Nollen?... I'm really scared... help?...
Thans for reading all this gibberish post...