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Mental Note 3/7/2005
I write myself a mental note,
Put it aside I'll read it later.
Procrastinate 'till I hate myself even more.
Open and shut case.
It was the mace that scarred my eyes,
From believing and seeing the truth.
I am one of the mislead youth.
I became this way myself,
Learned off of others misplaced hate,
Woke up each morning saying
"Well isn't this great."
I found myself mentally locked in a closet.
That morning I didn't drop off my deposit.
The departure of adolescence happened young,
It all hit me like a shot from a gun.
No one understands how my mindset works.
Illusions set my path array.
Never have listened to what they had to say.
Troublesome world for our degenerates,
Set a path and guide others through it,
Don't be fooled lead yourself.
You know we just may have meant,
But you seem to me that you're heaven sent.
When I look into your eyes I can't help but to stare,
It's inevitable that my gaze will always end up there.
When our lips touch it is pure bliss,
In fact I want a never ending kiss.
Now this is just the start you see,
And you have just seen the beginning of me.
When I’m with you I feel like I’m everything I can be,
It’s like my eyes have just opened and I’m first starting to see.
And as I look towards you, I see this beautiful face.
I never thought that this would be the case.
For once things are starting to look good.
I hope that they stay that way because they should.
We both deserve happiness in every aspect of our lives,
I mean just last night I had the time of my life.
I’ll always be there when you’re down,
I’d even dress up for you like a clown.
And I never want to see you with a frown,
If I do I’ll just flip you around.
With me by your side everything will come together gently,
It’s almost as if we came to one another indecently.
But no matter how it happened, I’m just glad it’s real,
And it turns out the devil didn’t have to make me a deal.
Everything is starting to fall into place,
Just like the stars up in outer space.
We don't know too much, but we take our guesses.
Learning from mistakes, and cleaning up our messes.
I can't help but to feel the happiness surrounding me,
Because I know that I'm starting to be what I need to be.
I'm growing up and I got to be responsible,
So come with me while I reach for the impossible.
It's all in my grip,
I'm holding the world in my hands,
My life now has got a whole lot of plans.
I know this is right, it all fits into place.
All I have to do now is keep up with this pace.
I welcome new beginnings, as old ones come to an end.
You can't measure your life without some sadness,
Let's not pretend.
No one can hold me back, for I know what's right.
And I'll follow my dreams, right into the spotlight.
I want you there with me, sharing it all,
Well go at your speed, it's all your call.
If you haven’t noticed I have already started to fall,
And as you can see I'm here for the long haul.
Not a single thing will tear us apart,
Here since the beginning, 'til the end, from the start.
Depressive exaggeration blending in with time,
Things completely messed up wish they were fine.
Theoretical mind blocks,
Can't get passed those.
Feeling the pressure and stress straight down to my toes.
Don't want to wake up,
Don't want to deal.
Hate people telling me just how to feel.
Confusion state elated more than usual,
Decisions hard to make,
Lost advantages which were there to take.
Why do I feel so fake?