posted on Feb, 12 2010 @ 11:15 AM
I'll tell you something I recall from my childhood....or there 'bouts.(lol!) It's either a dream or a memory, I've never quite been able to
decide.
When I was small, 4-5 years old.....I could 'remember' floating near the ceiling in our hallway, watching other children my age and some older,
playing in the hallway. When I would think of this image, I would 'feel' or 'think' that, "now I can play with them instead of just
watching..." ? ( I say floating.....I was above their heads, as if watching from a balcony or staircase.)
We moved into that old house when I was a year old. The previous owners did have children, but it's not likely that I'd remember them. My mom
says my crib stood by the window so that I could look out and watch the neighborhood kids.....so she thinks I'm remembering looking out at them.
( I accepted this reasoning for years, but it didn't really fit .)
In the years after leaving home, moving away from that house....I was tormented by nightmares about something 'bad' happening to it (not to my
parents, just to the house) .....after my parents were gone and I inherited the old place, the nightmares got worse.
I'd always had some 'bad' dreams that revolved around the place.....the one where I found a cool mahogany coffin in the front hall was very
'real' and unsettling .....and later my daughter dreamed that an old-fashioned dressed child was hiding in one of the closets. (after that, she
refused to sleep in that room when visiting Grandmother!).
Not particularly odd dreams, but when I began doing some historic research for the house, I found some interesting details.....The original(?) owners
had lost a child while living there....in about 1900, the child would have been 6 or so...The father was killed in a railroad accident in the
1920's...( was that his closed coffin I 'saw' in the front hallway??) After that, the widow 'gave the house away' and moved. She died in the
'40's.....a decade before I was born.
More of a 'haunted' house story than a tale of reincarnation, except for that peculiar memory of floating above those playing children, and of
longing to play with them.....?
My Mom may have supplied a clue a few years before her death, when she told me some details about an accident I'd had when I was about 3-4 years
old....I'd fallen off a stool and split my head on the corner of something, knocked myself unconcious and was bleeding pretty good....(I'd heard
that part for years, but you can imagine my surprise when she told me they'd thought I was 'gone' at first, because they could not tell if I was
breathing, or find a pulse..)...but when they splashed some cold water on my face, I revived with a gasp.
So perhaps my 'memory' of floating and watching had something to do with my attempt to understand an out of body experience....but that doesn't
really do much to explain my obsessive attachment (even when I was a kid) to that old house....So I have come to consider another question...
Could a waiting 'spirit' ( the widow) have 'moved in' when my other 'occupant' was temporarily knocked out...or had prematurely moved
on....???
(I'll see your crazy and raise you one obsession!)
[edit on 12-2-2010 by frayed1]