My expiriences from 10 and up, page 70

Originally posted by ShadowNinja
You do know this is not a permanent goodbye I am going to be merely taking a brake.

Couple friends also the guys up there recommended it so I decided it is the best right now.

So I will be back later on gonna take off time for training also connecting

@Woody I know how you mortals live, I lived amongst you for couple million years

Lol it is so funny and hilarious.

But yes I will be back later so taking a rest is important.

Love and Light.

Shadow, whilst you're off taking your 'space cadet sabbatical' ... see if they're offering courses on 'constructive conceptuality' because yet again you seem to have missed the whole point of what I was suggesting to you in my statement about us mere 'mortals' ... for someone who claims to be more than 2 million yrs old ... you are incredibly naive most of the time.

And please be aware that I meant what I said in one of my previous posts ...

I have no intention of climbing back on the 'Comic-Book Merry-go-round' with you and Unity / Mistiq (whatever she chooses to call herself now).

I returned to this thread for the sole purpose of communicating with the group of intellectually stimulating people, who have gathered here to share some uplifting metophysical and philosphical conversation (it's good for the soul).

Just check-out the last few pages to see what I mean it's called adult conversation (an exchange and/or sharing of viewpoints and information). It was such a refreshing change ... and really good to see your thread fulfilling the purpose that you claim you made it for ... 'a place for people to come and share their experiences'.

On a personal note I feel that I shared more about myself in the last couple of pages than I have over the previous 60+ ... quite theraputic.

You can actually take credit for bringing us all together here on your thread ... that is not / and never has been in question ... but I have lost patience with the 'oh so over the top' alien-droppings that you and your pal insist on promoting. And this is being said by me ... someone who believes 100% in intelligent extraterrestrial life because of my own firsthand experiences.

I have tried to explain the necessity for balance and you choose to ignore that and carry-on regardless ... that's great ... knock yourself out ... but please respect my decision to experience a different reality to that of your's and Unity's.

I really wish I could offer you PLRT and then you might begin to understand that whilst a pastlife has bearing and influence on your present lifetime ... it is very destructive to try and relive the past !!!

They are called 'PAST' lives for a reason.

Shadow ... I can understand why sometimes it's so easy to create a fantasy ... especially when the present hand we have been dealt seems so unfair ... but trust me ... fantasy is great escapism (in it's place) ... but care must be taken to keep it in it's rightful place otherwise it has the potential to take-over reality.

In your case you've been dealt an unfair hand. You are a young man with Muscular Dystrophy on top of all the other traumas that teenagers have to contend with.

Other people on your thread have explained that they have an assortment of life-trauma to contend with ... and I too have had more than my fair share of $h!t over the years eg;

It started right from day one when I was given-up for adoption by my birth mother.

I stupidly got married when I was 17yrs old and spent the next 21yrs (yes I did say 21 yrs) with a physically / psychologically / emotionally violent and faithless bully.

This bloody-awful union was finally brought to a dramatic climax when he held me and our children at the end of a double-barrelled shotgun because I'd found-out about his latest in a constant string of extra-marital affairs (cornered-rat syndrome ... when they feel cornered they lash out). Our house was surrounded by armed police throughout the night and he was eventually arrested.

But everything my ex-husband ever inflicted on me during that time paled into insignificance when I experienced the hugest devastation of my life when I gave birth to and held my dead baby son who was born 6wks prematurely ... the doctors said that his death was the equivalent of a 'cot death' but in the womb.

Eleven years ago I was diagnosed with Rheumatoid Arthritis that effected 75% of my joints ... the pain was excruciating 24/7 and for almost a year I was practically bedridden (only in my 30's then). After a while the hospital developed a cocktail of medication for me that finally brought the pain under control and my life got pretty much back to normal and I could do pretty much everything I could do before. Unfortunately this meant I'd gone from being a person who rarely took an asprin ... to a person who has to take 32 tablets a day.

All was well until 15mths ago when the pain started to break through and the tablets seemed not to work anymore. So now I still have to take the original 32 tablets every day ... but now I have the added pleasure of injecting myself in the stomach once a week, with a 'chemo-toxin' as well. This works a little bit but because it's the same stuff they use in chemotherapy for cancer patients one of the main side effects is chronic nausea ... so for 2 days after I inject I feel like crap.

Besides the above I have the same problems as every other person on the planet ... not least of all finacial and all that, that involves.

Have I ever seen myself as a victim ?

Never !

Without all of the above I would not be the strong /compassionate / empathetic / humorous person I am.

In spite of everything, I love my life and I like the person I have grown to be ... all because I chose to embrace my life-traumas ... not buckle under them ... or try to hide them behind fantasy.

I may have left myself bare in this post but if it helps you or anyone else for that matter, to understand that the Sh!tty bits can actually help us to become the best that we can be ... then I don't mind sharing.

The worst thing you can do when $h!t happens is try to mask it with fantasy ... always meet it head-on !

Have a good break.

Woody