posted on Jan, 23 2010 @ 11:23 PM
reply to post by EyeOnYou
Ah, Alrighty then well here goes I'll try and skip out on the parts not related to incidents/events of importance. I guess it mainly started when my
and my dad had a fight at one time, and afterwords my mother would seem to say that I was always struggling with myself or something while we were,
thankfully though as I grew up it has gotten better. I suppose that was one of the many things that led to the psychiatrist whom I visited in High
The first time I was ever put on medication that had to be taken daily was one A.D.D pill called Adderall 15 mg. I suppose it did it's job kept my
attention at school and pretty much worked throughout the day. This was the longest medication I had ever been on out of the three I will tell of.
Though the severe side-effects to it was that it would make me depressed, and not want to do anything. I can't even begin to count the times in which
I was teetering on the edge of life and death because I was contemplating whether or not to kill myself. Another side effect that I never really like
was after about an hour and I'd say twenty minutes, it would give me a mellow mood, and pretty much zapped every bit of energy that I would have to a
lower level instead of the high amount that I usually "carry" with me.
The second one I can't even recall the name as I was only on it for roughly two days unlike the other three which at least lasted a year or more.
Though for this one I got sent to the hospital, it's main effect on me was Anxiety to the point where I'd have to hug something dreadfully close to
my body to at least get some sign of comfort. The actual way of bypassing this was by falling asleep, and seeing how the medication wouldn't allow it
I would have to take benadryl to actually get to sleep.
The third was quite similar to the first one, though it felt a little bit lighter on the energy suppression. Though the effects were still the same
when it was about to wear off, though if I had to pick I would say this one made me more suicidal than the other. Caused me to snap at my sister more
times than I needed to and pretty much had myself locked in a room with various things that could have done the job.
So far I haven't been on any medication and still slightly recovering from some of the effects that were brought on by all three. Though I have found
different genres of music hold the key to the recovery so hopefully I can get back to where I was before I got messed up ( even more so ) than before
P.S. Good luck to all who have posted and hopefully things will get better for you all.
 Also wanted to add that I added a star as well to the OP
[edit on 23-1-2010 by Gigantea Rosa]