posted on Jul, 13 2010 @ 11:41 AM
I love your energy. Feeling some strong connections, and am sensing this awareness in you. I have been drawn to lots of energy, have energy
recognition, lots of people, even wearing the other masks in this duality, I'm going to add that caveat and you may have noticed I have threads out
there, even to try and reach family on the other side of the fence, and send love and light to each and every one of them. Yours is wonderful.
In any case, when I post, sometimes just boldly, then I hesitate and avoid for a bit, because I don't like negative responses, but I cant post in a
different manner, or get more practical with what I'm trying to say, or encourage others to discover in themselves. Im very right brained and have
been woken up to memories that connected to our family sitings and brothers experiences as well, growing up, and really woken up by them. And its a
duality universe asking a question, a test, an opportunity for progression and growth. The ones managing this are distorted in their viewpoints but
have alot of knowledge and information, very much so, just a kind distorted ideas of their true natures and roles. So with positive contact, there is
a family element there and metaphysics.
The test was kind of personal, I sense where it came from but, some of it is confusing because various things have come over and over again. It
seemed to be about my level of consciousness and whether I had moved out of human understanding. I posted on Lowki's thread about it and will find
the link. It related to a friend who has woken up with many wounds, often has memory blocks but sometimes if you ask the right question it triggers
downloads of memory, and who I've shared contact experiences with. He had experiences of their harvesting his AB dna with females who had been
raised since childhood in this usary, abusive Vrill like environment. It really upset me.
Now, I'd spent alot of time bringing issues in our world, under the stars and asking for help and how I could help, also the abuses here, and didn't
care one whit who was monitoring, what polarity or orientation, all in this cosmos are family, some need to be reminded. Alot of changes, the last
year in my understanding due to seeking my Higher Self more, so my understanding has changes and become spiritual and ufology oriented, combined, kind
of quantum phsyics meets the Beyond, whats outside this school. In this moment, I went under the stars and was quite upset and asked for real help
to end the abuse of women and children, even hybrid program the black ops and negatives are running and that the cosmos and old empire/negatives in it
are very patriarchal and that we need women on the job. I was very upset.
Then I calmed down, and later was meditating listeining to the frequencies when I felt a craft overhead and monitoring, then next, what I call images
of a blond male who I've seen before, speaking of Sirian and Sirian/Ple'o'sha'n councils (implying one system and then a coalition body with two,
not sure what this means at all), and cultural exchange.
Then it was more him pursuing me. which I in the end decided was a test of my understanding of sexuality and whether or not I myself had grown up in
this area. The presentation was like he wanted to marry me or something along those lines, but I just felt this was something that no one without
their soul memories or knowledge of life and who they were should engage in. And, have always felt I have family watching over and someone waiting
for me. So in the end, after many scenes in which I changed them each time and got away, I said I didn't know who I was yet.
Then I opened my eyes, decided that this was a meditational mystery, not real, I didnt think it was real, the skeptic in me always leaps forward and
analyzes it and I put it down to the frequencies.
I stood to go into the house, and looked over to the right to this clearing in the sky where we have had sitings. I had been experiencing many rushes
of vibrations, rapid ones, during the meditaiton, and experience, and this is something I relate strictly to a higher frequency state. And ET_MAN
asked me if I had seen a craft (because my son and I have witnessed many together, including the rest of my children for some) that only I could
He also had talked about contact my son recieved in the kitchen, during a time when he had missing time and a few other things. Well this would be
the one siting that only I could see, I believe.
It was a beatuiful, huge solid, gleaming glowing white, light ship, graceful and unlike any picture I have ever seen online. It had huge molded
platoons along the sides of the body from the back. It materialized and I saw it from the back at a slight angle, and then it flew forward and
I've had other experiences where they test us, another where it seemed to be relating to how in control of ourselves and our human natures we are,
how higher thought oriented we are. In that one I was told I would have contact, and this is from someone I have love for, he is very heroic feeling,
and idealistic, when he talks to me it was about Africa being the symbol of the world, and told me later to love my children and put them first in
everything, that he was a father too. The image he gives me in the picture/sound type contact, and my experience and night time memories is of a
beautiful attractive dark haired man. In this instance, I felt this surge of happiness and a fleeting thought that he was attractive and he did not
like that. Instantly I was felt his disapproval and that we humans were too sexual or something.
He put me in a craft in my mind, and I was suddenly onboard with him and he was telling me with teleapthic images and feelings that he cared very much
for me, that he was falling in love with me, etc etc. I sensed a test. I said instantly, no you misunderstand. This is a human experience and its
not possible for us to completely control every thought but just because I think the image you sent me is very appealing, and really like your
feeling/energy who you present yourself as being does not mean that I would want to ruin communication this way, or that I am interested in someone in
that kind of way, I don't even know who my family is and want to remember and when my life is over go back home.
In any case, then I was shown the viewing station monitoring the sun, and had a real paradigm changing expeirence, which was almost too much for me.
But was told it was time I knew this. When I did my normal, this cant' be true and didnt accept it when the contact was over, I was outside and my
son and I had contact with a craft, in fact I believe this may have been the one last July where as I turned to go into the house, this voice sounded
loudly, Not yet, we havnt greeted you yet. And a red lighted craft appeared between the trees and flew forward and as it approached the roofline my
son and I both saw it was a saucer.
Alot of my contact happened that way, where I would doubt it, it was hard to get me to trust it, and so there was always a wake up call in seeing a
craft. I trust it now.
to be con't