They valiantly tried to get me after I left the courthouse, but lol, failed when they got stuck in a traffic jam and I disappeared into the public
streets. Funny as hell though, seeing their faces desperately searching for me and getting nowhere but frustrated with traffic. I watched from a
distance as they pulled some poor car over and fined them for something out of anger.
I had also met a lady just before trial, one that would become the only woman I will ever love, and we had a son, who I love more than life itself.
She already had a daughter, and I raised her daughter and love the kid every bit as much as I do the two children that are biologically related to me
as the father. My first daughter came to live with us two years later and would continue to remain with us for the duration. The family was complete,
all I could love were there with me, and as long as they were there, I would always be happy deep down inside. I would come to lose them all 13 years
later, in a blink of an eye.
As I raised my family, I learned that I was a horrible father and husband. I was great at providing a new home that had been just built and never
lived in, I provided all new lazyboy furniture, new beds you could drop a bowling ball on one side and the pins would not move on the other side, Big
Screen TV and expensive surround sound theatre, new cars fresh off the lot, food galore and expensive food at that filled the fridge, cupboards and
I always worked, with every waking moment, I provided, I loved beyond the scope and cherished their every breaths, but I was the worst father and
husband on Earth because I still acted out of impulse and caused a lot of emotional grief. I was not a physically violent person, my punishment was to
kiss cheeks, but I was emotionally the worst damned influence in their life. I wish I could be a great dad and husband, but I was not.
I exist within a human body, so my natural impulses for food and liquid, specifically white wine in abundance, was taken advantage of from the
beginning through to the end. Also being of human design with basic nature, I was tempted by the appearances of females, and followed my instinct way
too much, overboard, which emotionally impaired the relationship with my wife.
All human beings hurt the feelings of others by intention or accident, it is the nature of the design, and all of us are guilty of wronging others
from time to time. It is an inevitable way of the human being, we are all inmates in a prison called Earth, and we are also trapped by the walls of a
cell called the human body, we can not escape.
Throughout the history or mankind, there has been tales of jealousy and war, Gods and deities who will come to provide salvation or punish the evil
doers of the world, this theme is prevalent throughout the histories of recorded time. This theme is prevalent throughout the Bible, and it is this
theme that plays out in every human beings life at some point. We all become part of a mission for justice or face an injustice in our lives, it is
unavoidable, it comes with the territory, it is what we perceive as life.
When I first seen the images of people leaping out of a building to their death on September 11th, I was surprised but not shocked. I had already seen
this and the only shock I felt was one of “so, we finally caught up to the future of our collective fate”. I felt a sick relief instead of sorrow
that what I had expected so long finally happened, what I had been prepared to see was indeed occurring in my lifetime.
The symbol of human terror and horror was being broadcast to the world in a moment. I had already seen these exact images as a teenager, and it was
like watching a pre-recorded video that I had already watched 20 some years earlier. This was not a shock to me, it was a confirmation. I doubted all
my years that what I had been shown was nothing more than a symbolic illusion, a play on the mind, but no longer, it was a true event.
I could no longer wonder if what I had seen twenty years prior was just imagined, I knew it was part of the play in this lifetime. I knew that what
was coming was not going to be a surprise, I knew it was part of a SCHEDULE, events that were predetermined and yet to be fulfilled. The following
year or so I was not shocked by tsunamis and flood events, I was again reminded that the confirmation was real. I now knew without doubt that weird
events in my youth were not imagined, but were confirmed, and that this reality was merely an illusion of a universal design, a natural order of
events that create the future. ATS POST
A few years ago, my family planned a trip to the coast to see family, the first trip ever without me, the first time since we became a family that I
would spent a single night without any of them. The morning they left, I was awoken by a spirit being, one I had not encountered in my previous
communications as a child or teenager. It had been a quarter century since my last encounter with a member of an advanced civilization, but this one
was not physical in form and seemed to speak from both the sky and to my side.
The words spoken were clear, “THEY ARE SCHEDULED TO PERISH”. I was given a choice, my family would be removed from Earthly existence or they would
remain, I had to give up everything I loved and suffer in exchange for their lives to remain. I made the choice and a chain of unexplainable events
followed suit, starting that very same day. Had these events not occurred, hell, I would have thought it was all imagined.
That afternoon, my wide called me and said not to worry, but, the car was totalled in a head on collision with a truck carrying a large recreational
trailer. The head on collision occurred at over 100 kph was and was instantaneous without time to brake as it happened on a very short bend in the
road. The air bags inflated and the front end was curled in to the windshield, there was no front end to the car left as my wife took pictures, there
was only a destroyed windshield and the remainder of the vehicle.