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Originally posted by double_frick
i need help. :/
i even made a whole thread about this, felt better for a few days, and feel just as bad again.
my problem is, i understand a lot, i've come really far in my spiritual journey. i know that its as easy as letting go. just BE. and be happy, allow it, blah blah blah. i know, if i wanted to, i could just turn off these "dark feelings" and continue my life in bliss. but why don't i want to? obviously i hate feeling this way, but i KNOW that my SELF is forcing this for some reason, though i can't figure out why! i feel there is a big reason i am feeling this way, that i'm supposed to be getting something, but all im getting is angry at everyone around me and honestly, wanting to give up in whatever way i can.
i do believe in the going through hell to get to heaven.
or even the wounded healer aspect, but with all i understand what else do i need to to get through this feeling that i've made a wrong choice and that i will always regret that. (even though i also know that i made no wrong choice, all is as it should be, yadda yadda. yet a big part of me just doesn't want to settle for this answer, the right one.)
sorry to go on.