posted on Dec, 25 2009 @ 02:04 AM
Ho Ho Ho!
Merry Christmas, and a happy new year!!!
I really mean it, I do, but unfortunately I'm not Santa(for my little brother I am, placed the presents oh so properly and carefully under the tree
for him) and I can't give you a Mercedes in your drive way for Christmas =(
But, to all those who do remember Santa, I felt so disappointed when I found out he wasn't real, a late bloomer if I remember correctly, I think I
was 10 or 11.
Ah, what a depressing day that was. It sat with me for along time, and after Santa wasn't real, I knew I couldn't really trust people, or my parents
as much as I did before, and I knew deep down inside after that, that life really is monotonous and revolves around one thing, so precious, $.
I can remember how nice it was, to believe in something that wasn't real, to have faith in something good, and happy, something that brought you
happiness! Once, every year! And it even had a guaranteed date!
Now, I wish Santa wouldn't come for me, of course he still does, but right out of my families pocket which even just makes me feel more like
sh1t(Excuse my language mods, if you'd let it slip this time...), because we're all broke and barely afford a roof and food.
The main reason I bring this all up, is I wish I still believed in Santa. This is a metaphor if you will, for when I believed the world it was what it
was just because that's the way it is, I believed MSM one time, for the most part, I used to believe the Twin Towers fell directly from terrorist
attacks, I used to believe the government at least TRIED to help their people.
Then one day, a little over a year ago, I realized it was just like believing in Santa, that the world is the way it is because it just is, and I
enjoyed believing this, but when I realized there is a much more sidious plot to the world, much more then occasional embezzlement's and President's
getting sucked off by co-workers, I felt just like I did when I found out Santa wasn't real, except, this time my parent's didn't tell me...
[edit on 25-12-2009 by Revolution-2012]