Originally posted by juzchilln
Do any of you, who are going through this process, feel like you're loosing your mind? I'm about 6 months in and sometimes I reach areas of thought
that can be argued both ways and just as logically.
i think both are true: awakening AND losing our minds!
but all of it in a good way, for sure.
it's a lot like puberty, in our human lifetimes!
halfway between *here* and *there* is always a crazy place to be - no matter the specifics.
but i can tell you what i've found out, in my own process, so that you feel better about all these changes and miracles!
for me, things started up, in a noticeable degree, in the summer of 2004 - so i've got a pretty good perspective on where you are probably at right
it was the same for me but at least you have others who might be able to advise you
i had no one
for so long i wondered, truly, if i was the only person on the planet feeling the way that i did
i know i was not, but because of the scarcity i think, there was this huge feeling of isolation!
and no one to relate to or to spout off to - well, actually my boyfriend and mom are literally saints because they were there for me and loved me all
along even though i am sure they often thought i was crazy - more than i myself did!
but i only say these things to help
i don't think there's any reason for the earliness of my own starting-up process - and that of others - other than that it was for the sole purpose
of being able to help others later on (now).
i am sure that we all come with a plan in place, that we've chosen and drawn up, in partnership with our Creator...forgotten, of course, on the
conscious level but nevertheless we stick to this plan...and so i've come to understand that there are souls that tend to be more fearless than
others - not necessarily courageous but perhaps even just foolish
but those who don't fear the dark of the cavern ahead are the ones that should volunteer to hold the lantern up for the rest of the party, as well as
making the best and safest path for everyone's well-being who is coming along.
equally so, i feel that there is a certain sort of soul who volunteers to "bring up the rear," so to speak...there must be someone at the end of the
group that makes sure than no one is lost or left behind.
i don't think that those souls are quite to the threshold of their own beginning process, but i could be wrong.
what i do see now, in the present, is an undeniable swelling in the awakening population!
i can't remember when it was that i noticed what was going on around me, in others...but i do know how i felt!
not alone FOR SURE!
we're all in this together and it's so beautiful now.
I'm waking up everyday with schematics and concepts that flood my head so fast that by the time I can get a hold of it and make any sense of
it, something else comes along. Yet, they all seem to be so interconnected. But at the same time, I'm having a harder and harder time holding onto
some stable platform of reality. I'm not going to flip or anything because I try to slow down the pace, but it's hard sometimes.
i totally relate to all that!
it is INSANE, isn't it?
but amazingly mind-blowing, at the same time, huh?
who knew it would be so fantastic!?
do you get breaks from that pace, though?
it didn't seem to be my own doing, but more like someone watching over me to make sure i didn't burn out or blow up or whatever else might have been
but i got through that part, finally, and it isn't that there comes a time in which the knowledge flow ceases or slows down...you just learn to cope
with it and then you gradually become accustomed to it.
but it's never any less thrilling, at least so far!
Like it feels like my IQ is going up every day but my understanding is trying to keep up. Like I am new every single day.
well, you ARE!
and it is (your IQ!)
sometimes you just have to let go of the idea that you must "understand."
i have learned that "experience" is where it's at, in the *now*
understanding will come
for all of us
maybe that's something reserved for when we're finally all more or less "on the same page."
Also, people are staring at me like I am some long lost father. That's the only way to describe it. I've heard other's mention the same
thing too. People are attracted to me or EQUALLY repulsed by me. Like they see themselves in my eyes and are afraid of "seeing" it.
i never thought of it that way - description evaded me but now that i read this, i realize your words are very fitting!
perhaps we also were afraid of "seeing" it in others, before it was in our own eyes...but didn't realize any more than probably anyone else?
it's something to ponder.
Sometimes, a person's life flashes into my mind as soon as I make eye contact with them. Like a freeze frame of time where He or She takes me
through the pains of their life and I know everything about them in a split second. I love them immediately.
that is AWESOME!
that love is the true reward!
it makes you want to cry and laugh and hug and shout...and just hearing you express it gives me a feeling that is truly bliss!
are you happy in all this?
is it beyond your wildest dreams?
i hope so
i hope it's all good and never scary
i hope what i've shared with you makes it even better, because that is my goal