Let it be known that this room was not just an empty room - I took it in a psychologist's office, surrounded by books and ... random decorative
objects that are way more interesting than a blinking square. After just a few minutes of clicking, I was so damn bored that I couldn't help
but take my eyes off the screen. If anyone could manage to stare at that screen for seventeen minutes and click a button every time one square flashed
above another, then, well, they may want to look into medication to help with being a robot. I don't know how someone my age (or any normal human)
could've even attempted to actually "pass" the test, let alone a five or ten year old child! Anyway..
I was sent to a psychiatrist who put me on Concerta
almost immediately without hardly knowing me at all. I was supposed to let her know how it
was working and to come in every once in a while to give her updates.
Well, I can tell you exactly how Concerta makes you feel and act. You become a robot, for lack of better words. Suddenly, taking notes and doing
homework and copying definitions is... really satisfying and almost fun. You can't do anything but pay close attention and take as many notes as
possible. Not because you're suddenly genuinely interested, but because... you are unable to daydream and idle. You're suddenly very intent on
finishing as many tasks as possible. Yes, Concerta really, REALLY is a guaranteed method of making very, very good grades. I started making straight
A's. I also was unable to eat, I could barely even talk after I "came down", couldn't sleep - I couldn't even find it in me to crack a smile at
some really funny jokes after the drug initially wore off. Full of energy when it's in effect and a zombie when it's done.
I told the psychiatrist about the robot and zombie aspect of the drug (although in different terms) and she asked if I was depressed.
her... well, not really. I was kinda sad about uh getting dumped and stuff but I mean, I was alright. She put me on Lexapro
to even out the
effect of the Concerta. And I can tell you it made absolutely no difference. But I still took it every morning with my other pills. Let it also be
known that I was prescribed the highest dose I could legally take at my weight. (I'm little.) This is because I would tell her how it kinda wore off
early and didn't last the whole school day. I eventually came to the conclusion that I liked having my personality more than good grades.
When I was prescribed Lexapro,
I was constantly asked if I was having suicidal thoughts. My mood was always in question. One of the common
"side-effects" of anti-depressants is SUICIDAL THOUGHTS.
From helpguide.org, same article as quoted in my previous post:
There is a danger that, in some people, antidepressant treatment will cause an increase, rather than a decrease, in depression. In fact, the U.S. Food
and Drug Administration requires that all depression medications include a warning label about the increased risk of suicide in children and young
adults. The suicide risk is particularly great during the first month to two months of treatment.
She prescribed me various other medications and we eventually stopped with the Lexapro. I took up to 72mg of Concerta daily for a long time. After
that it was Ritalin, then Vyvanse, AdderalXR and AdderalIR, trying various dosage amounts of each. All of them did basically the same thing in
different ways. All were time-release except AdderalIR. They had various levels of "energy" and euphoria boosts but were all just amphetamines when
it all boiled down.
Parents, please be aware
that when you give your child medication for ADHD, you are giving him amphetamines. You don't have to go and buy meth
- the government will give it to you. My prescription reads "D-amphetamine salts". Over the years, the "medication" has become harder and harder
to abuse, but it is what it is.
Concluded in next post