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Originally posted by themuse reply to post by Toughiv
I feel you I too ride the Motivation/Procrastination seesaw. (Regularly – sadly)Sometimes I miss being a kid when I was just on autopilot.. Your Life is not about anyone else but you and what you do and how you feel about what you do and say etc is what counts here.
Pick a perception, one that works for you. A positive view obviously. Love yourself enough to make ‘standards’ that you live by and do as part of your culture. Its not about the end reward, its about how you value yourself.
What works for me is reminding myself of my integrity, what integrity means to me and then the discipline kicks in… not always on the first reminder I am only human!! I use this one word, Integrity, to motivate myself to be honourable to myself and do what I have to do to the standard I expect from myself especially if id rather not do whatever it is I’m going to do. I say to myself, right I can look at this a number of ways, which is going to be the one that works for me positively. EG Say I have a metric fudge tonne of boring housework to do….I look at it like this - I don’t want to let myself down, I don’t want to cause myself to feel guilt or negative things about my own actions… its not very true to myself is it? I either justify my not doing said task because it can be justified without negative repercussions or I do said task because it actually gives me more ‘energy’ to do the ‘right’ thing for myself. I don’t turn off just because no one is looking.
After a while of not doing the righty by yourself, the trust and respect you have for yourself can be damaged and you can start to become lax about ‘life in general’ so to speak, your standards drop, your care factor goes below zero and things become sloppy.
Its important to value yourself, have a level of inner honour, respect, loyalty, integrity, benevolence, truth, justice for yourself. I hope this is helpful, in anyway to you. I totally understand where you are coming and wish you all the best. Have the best day themuse
Originally posted by EnlightenUp
The greatest danger I face at this moment is a waning fear of death coupled with depression.
Originally posted by bsbray11
One's spirit can be very aware, however the body has to play catch-up, including the habitual wiring of the brain.
When your internal spiritual awareness merges with your entire body, then you will really be onto something magical.
[edit on 16-12-2009 by bsbray11]
Originally posted by kyle43
Hi I'm new here but I think this a good starting point for me to jump into conversation
turn off your mind, relax, float down stream
Originally posted by double_frick
reply to post by redwoodjedi
i was feeling better this morning. and then worse. and now...thank you! i feel better already and i'm sure its still working its way throughout!
*hugs*
awesome.
Originally posted by double_frick
i know now more than ever i should be focusing on raising my vibration and being of a higher state of mind. with everything i know and understand this shouldn't be difficult, but right now it feels like the hardest thing i've ever done. and worse, i am hammering in on myself for not being able to pull myself out of it even though i know exactly how to do it. its like a part of me wants to wallow in this egoic pity-party, for pretty much NO reason. there is nothing wrong in my life, but my heart hurts. i just want to cry. and yell. and run away. and sleep for a million years. this is not out of the ordinary for me, but having made so many realizations and really made huge steps for the better i didn't think i'd end up back here at the bottom. its been at least a couple weeks of trying to keep my head above it all and now i've really hit bottom. and all i can do is be angry at myself for what i am attracting! and i feel like a failure, and like a bum for not mustering up the motivation to move past this instead of marinating in it.
any thoughts? is this common for those who are ascending *as i believe(d) i am(was) before now* to teeter totter on the edge, or so it seems, before finally breaking through?
i mean, i can make as many realizations as i want but there is still part of me that is ego still and it wants what it wants and will drive me crazy apparently until i find the strength to win, for a time. but it always comes BACK! how do i stop this?!?
Originally posted by nine0099thousand
Well, it's always good to try and design your life and way of thinking to a more positive state.
However, maybe the problem is that you are too focused on metaphysical and "spiritual" practices. Have you considered that these things aren't even real?
Running from your ego may destroy you rather than help anyone.
Originally posted by double_frick
seems there is just one last thing that i can't make peace with. thought i had. how do you stop lamenting a choice that put you down the path you are on?! i just wish i could blink myself back to that pivotal moment and make the other decision and see where it goes. :*(