posted on Dec, 9 2009 @ 06:01 PM
I actually think threads like this are necessary because they bring into light issues of human nature which we often just slip under the carpet and
pretend that it is not there. This makes us who have thought of killing or raping somebody feel inhuman, wrong and we censor our thoughts, rather than
investigating them. Fortunately, we are living in a more liberal and open society today, where we can talk about these things.
I started a thread a long time back called, "Evil thoughts" Ever since I was a child I would have very evil thoughts, and strangely, they were about
people who I really cared about. I use to lament these thoughts, thinking myself to be some evil and twisted soul. I fought my "human" nature and
suppressed it. Later on, while my evil thoughts started to subside, they would resurface again from time to time. It has been a long time since I had
them now, but I doubt they are completely gone.
What are they and why do they occurr? I think partly they are a trace of our animal past. In those times, killing another being was Ok and we did not
have to worry about what others thought. It was survival of the fittest. I think part of us really resents relationships and wants to be free and
individual, so this may explain why my evil thoughts were more about my loved ones.
So what to do? It is my theory that some of us have given into these thoughts and then become those murderers and rapists that we all love to hate.
While, most of us suppress them, but express them in the subtle violence we do to each other and hence why we secretly enjoy watching violence. It
satisfies that primal nature within us. Some of us take to the other extreme of the murder and rapist and try to behave like saints. In all of these
strategies to deal with our evil thoughts, there is an element of suppresion to various degrees. We are constantly having to suppress these thoughts
and not actually coming to terms with them. I really must pity the very positive, peaceful and loving religionists who try to hide from their human
But does this mean that we simply give in? Everybody returns to their animal nature, hunts, gathers, kills? No, but one must understand the deeper
ontological reasons for why we feel that. And that is, according to my philosophy, a desperate desire to be free! We hate bondage. We hate prisons of
all kinds. Physical prisons; social prisons; mental prisons. We know deep down that we are really spaceless and timeless beings, and this is why
secretly we want to destroy everything, including those relationships we most cherish, even our bodies. This is what Freud called the Thanatos
So rather than giving in to raping, murdering and hating one another, which is giving in to your mental prison, understand your spaceless and timeless
nature and realise it. Free yourself from these prisons.
[edit on 9-12-2009 by Indigo_Child]