posted on Dec, 7 2009 @ 05:10 AM
People have told me many times, that I have too big of a heart. Other times, people tell me that I have no heart. Either way, I know that I could
possibly care too much too often about things that I have no control over. I have been through some amazing events and times in my life to where I
could sit here and say that I have been through many ups, and many many downs. Even when I am at my worst, I try to do everything I can to help
someone out that is in need of my assistance, I never shut people out, its just not who I am.
Everything that goes on around me, is going on with or without my assistance. The world turns even when I am stuck, and no matter how hard I try to
get myself out of the crack, something is always there sucking me farther and farther down the pits of hell. There are many people in my life, but
there are very few that I could actually count on if I ever needed anything from them(eventhough most times I am too proud to ask for that
assistance). For those people I am thankful, because without them, I would probably be either strung out on dope, laying in the water channel with a
bullet in my head, or robbing people just to get by,etc,etc.
Everytime I turn on the T.V. and see whats on the news, and what isnt on the news, I sit back and wonder how these people can sit there with a smile
on their face, straight up lying to me, as if what they were saying was gods words. Emotionless bastards, they stick up for themselves and the guys
who write the checks, but when it comes to the people that they themselves are supposed to be lookin out for, oh no, us little guys get the fallback
storys, the stories that dont even matter, yet are expected to believe because THEY say so. These are the stories that we the people, are meant to
fight over amongst each other while they go out and conquer the world. How can we as a people, accept this as truth? How can we as people just sit
back and let them do these things to us, when we know GOD DAMNED well what it is that they are up to? Why do we keep doing what they tell us? Why am I
fighting with my neighbor over who or not made the right decision when it came election time? Why are we fighting each other? Is that what we as a
people want? To be fighting each other so that these bastards can continue on doing exactly what we know that they are doing. Why is it that everytime
I get online to get away from that, the first thing that I see is the exact same thing as on T.V? People arguing over senseless **** that they
themselves have no control over? Why do we let these bastards, come into our home, and rip our families apart? Why do we let these bastards, ruin
every single oz of good that we have left in us just so they can get what THEY want? Why is it that we can never help OURSELVES get what we want? Why
do they matter?
Why is it that we are so concerned about their welfare, but not our own? We let these people do whatever they want to us, at the expense of saying
"see I was right andyou were wrong"? When are we going to wake up?
It is funny though, cause when I joined ATS, I saw something I have never seen before, people from all over the world comming into one spot to talk
about anything and everything they wanted to talk about that effects the whole world.
I was amazed at all of the work that the members of this site put forth to spread 'the truth'. And really, we all know its not about the truth, we
will never get the truth. Its all about walking the path, to find the truth within ourselves. Do I need keith Olberman or bill orielly to tell me what
I should be thinking? Should I let these guys forge my way of thinking? I make my own truth, because I believe what I choose to believe based on all
different points of views and experiences. You can not have the truth, if you only have newspapers and news stations giving you the information(they
allwork forthe same aholes). You have the truth when you realize that everything that you have ever seen or done in your past is in fact what you
believe in. "I seen a 50 ft Aligator, but you dont have to believe me, cause I seen it with my own eyes, thats the truth." "I used to not believe
in aliens, until one day I woke up with an alien staring at me, but was unable to move". To those people, no Bill Orielly, nor Keith Olberman can
make them change their minds, because what they saw/experienced was indeed the truth.
How often does one(while reading his daily news) say"You know what, I do not know if I really believe all of this"? Thats what I thought, and the
reason for that is because its NOT the truth. If it was the truth, the human mind wouldnt have any problem accepting it, but when there is doubt,
there is usually good reason for those doubts.
Everyday, I have a ritual. I get up, I smoke a cigarette, I brush my teeth, cook something for breakfast/lunch(depending on if Ihad a good night or
not) and I get online to see what I have missed in those 5-12 hours of sleep. By the time I am done reading, my head is bursting like a watermellon on
gallagers stool. There is just soo much mis-information out there, that it is hard for me to EVER believe a word ANY of these jackals say anymore.
Tommorow morning, I could wake up, turn on the news, and see them talking about Isreal Nuking Iran. Would I believe them? Of course I wouldnt, because
I DO NOT let these stooges make my mind up for me.
So here is my question(s) to all of you who chose to read this far(and I am honored that you did)....
Why dont we do something about this? Why are we letting them walk all over us when it is we the people, that have the power?Or do we have the power
Why do I even care anymore? Why do you still care?