posted on Dec, 6 2009 @ 09:52 PM
I've done bad things in my life. Not evil, just selfish. Inherently, I've always known I wasn't a bad person. I just made mistakes. I can't
even kill a fly....but....
Lately I've been feeling exactly as you. I have re-examined myself a lot, and reiterated I still have a long way to go. It's one thing to tell
yourself this, another to truly realize you are not perfect, you don't have all the answers, and you must learn. My complacency of my own
"goodness" kept me from realizing I still had a LOT of growing to do.
So I am grateful I feel more shame now. Like they say, Know thyself. I say go with it, realize you're not perfect, and build with kindness and
love. You can't do it overnight, but always strive to help those around you. Question your own motivations, ALWAYS.
And always remember you must live the consequences of the choices you make and have made. Sometimes they take a very small shovel to dig out. Doing
the right thing isn't always just a jump over a line. Do the best where you can, and recognize that some changes require growth. And question
EVERYTHING...cause if you don't, you might begin to close your eyelids just a little.