reply to post by mellisamouse
I think there's definitely something to that, mellisa, although I didn't directly experience the intervention of 'spirit' until I was a little
older. Early twenties. Yet as I say that, I am reminded of certain dreams I had as a youngster, which drew for me a vision of a better possible
future, and implanted in me the idea that there were "helpers" looking out for me, who had total faith that I would get through it all.
Mainly, as an earlier poster said, I believe it has something to do with an early obsession, an early imperative, to ask the question, "WHY". WHY
is this happening to me? WHY won't anybody help me? WHY won't it stop? And that habit, asking why, becomes essential to our nature. I ask it all
the time, to the point of infuriating people. I question everything, most especially myself, and my own ideas. If you grow up in a situation of
pain, shrouded by denial, it makes you hunger for the truth in a very profound way. That desire to know 'why' has become my mantra, my mission.
I think that I eventually got a peek behind the curtain primarily because I was looking to get backstage. And as you say, others, who have more joy
and connectedness in this world, might not have the same motivation.
Somebody once said, you can choose the path or wisdom, or you can choose the path of happiness, but you can not travel both.
So I suppose I struck out for truth. But you know what? Lately, I feel more and more like there IS NO TRUTH. As Robert Anton Wilson said, "Once
you contact Big Mind, even briefly, most of "metaphysics" and most of "materialism" seem rather unreal and beside the point. "
What do I mean by that? I mean that I have equal appreciation for spirit, and science, and refuse to believe that there is any contradiction at the
root of it all, between the two. It is only our limits of comprehension that render it so. I've had spiritual experiences that have left me
profoundly touched, and profoundly confused - erased any notion of sureness I ever had about any belief I ever held.... and I've been able to use
science to help people's lives as a behavioral therapist. Science is constantly reminding us, through it's methods of testing and retesting, that
certainty is folly. A true seeker, of any kind, is never satisfied, and is always open to new information.
Why did I take that little tangent..... I suppose because I anticipate I'll aggravate people here, and run afoul of the moderators with my habit of
perpetual interrogation. I hope not. I care about many of the same issues. I just have my own way of getting at truth I can trust.
But thanks for the reply.
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