reply to post by captiva
I have noticed that there is a lot more tension on the roads. Drivers can always get a feel for the attitude and tension among others drivers, and for
me attitudes seem to have gone down the toilet over the past few months. It has been a slow process but it has definitely been a decline from where I
am sitting. I know Edinburgh folk are not known for their friendliness, and they are as dour as they come unless you are a tourist burdened with money
Things are getting ridiculous and I am not imagining it.
There have been cars pulling out without indicating or a teenage child running out into the road at night form a garden gate. He was so fast that I
had no chance to do an emergency stop and nearly ended up clipping him. Had I hit him he would have been badly hurt if not killed outright. Just
remembering it makes my toes curl. The weird thing about that was he never even looked in my direction, he just sprinted across two lanes of busy
traffic like it was a nothing and disappeared into the dark with his hoody up.
Few people even look each other in the eyes and if they do then it is a shifty sideways look that indicates distrust and an expectation of danger. I
really dislike that because I am not a threat, I am just a baldy headed guy going about my business and I wish no person to feel ill at ease just
because I am walking near them or past them - sigh. Heck I’m the guy that will put you out if you burst into flames or the guy that will come
running if you call out for help (I am weird like that).
Another thing I have noticed personally is that I have been sleeping much more and for longer, my dreams are extremely vivid and always they come with
grand apocalyptic and highly detailed themes. I keep waking up at 03:30 roughly (I check) and the dreams are disturbing to say the least.
At the gym I picked up an injury to my left hamstring and the thing just will not heal and this is annoying because I am careful to warm up, warm down
and to stretch. This is a weird one for another reason because I have always healed really fast. Example months ago I brained myself against the roof
of my daughters summer house as I chased my dog and the graze was gone within four days - normal.
My hamstring however has been with me for much longer and just persists like a bad smell. I keep training but I am reduced to the cross trainer and
any running is off the menu. Such little things should not be a depressant but I really love running and can find real mental, near spiritual peace on
a good run no matter the weather.
Then yesterday I get an email from my bro who lives in Germany that his son has come down with confirmed swine flu which had me in a spin for a while
but so far he seems to be fighting it off without resorting to tamiflu and is a big no, no on the vaccine. I hope the choice was the right one.
Such times we are living in eh?
To me it feels like pressure and it feels like something wants to give. Maybe my perceptions are skewed but I’m normally quite attuned to my social
environment those around me that share my space.
It feels like pressure a building over many months of stress and worry; I hope it gets better soon.