666 this one TAKES THE CAKE! ;D 666, page 4

Hey:
Well i read it all and lost a good deal of personal logic in the process, i have to say though my man the thing we are missing in the midst of you all overness is your statement that you have neglected your family over the past 11 years. Now i dunno if that means you are married and have an 11 yr old child or your last 11 years youve drifted further form your immediate family i.e. mother father and siblings. Either way perhaps the web of confusion could be solved with a talk with your family regarding issues that do not affect the outcome of the world, or involve a man behind a curtain. I think youll find that no matter how evil this world is if you are not a part of your own family you cant do anything to thwart their plans. I ask you this, what is worse? To be aware of of the evils in the world and not do anything about it? or To be an evil part of your own families world?
You said this "For some reason, I never took any steps to make my Trauma Based T-Shirts company a reality" Here is where i can help you. You are not alone in this confusion of why you never acted, some 98% of people who come up with ideas dont pursue them any further as they wait for a better idea to come along. I say run with it, get involved in this T-shirt company idea, want some pointers? Thats retorical im giving them to you anyway. It is quite simple (depending on your location on the planet) to get a small business loan. Im sure you expecting a proposal to be something you have to attend university for but i have seen business proposal typed up on one page that get grants. What you will need to put down into writing is the following:
1. What are your target markets/ demographics (this should be easy)
2. What kind of capital do you need to get started (t-shirts and silk screening material)
3. What kind of insurance would be relative (if your employing people or even your shirts youll have to lok into this.)
4. When can your investors expect to see a return on their investment.
5. What kind of return would you/they be expecting.
6. What happens if you cant re-pay
7. and finally you have to show them why, this is probbaly the biggest one, why? You have to show that you will do the t-shirt concept differently from the X amount of people who have gone to them and asked for a similar loan. You have to discover your niche and make sure they see it also, in your case conspiracy theorists, which is a growing market. Use the word VALUE, after all this is a bank, they have customers and they want their investments to go correctly. If you tell them that your goal is to add value to their customers youll have them listening.
All in all my friend i believe other than the aspects of your life your currently engagin in there are more productive, albeit in the same genre, that you could be doing.
For the record i smoke weed daily and so do many of my friends in business, truthfully in case people didnt know pretty much everyone in Canada smokes weed alot. Its not an excuse for illogical statements or a reason to cast doubt on a person, smoking weed confirms one thing in a person, they smoke weed. Nothing more.