I found a website that gave me ideas on what to do with my inventory.
My clay pots:I have several different sizes.The large ones can be used
to make lye.Place pine needles on the bottom of the pot.Then place ashes
from, hard wood,on top of the needles.You rig this clay pot over a cooking
pot, outdoors ,and let rainwater drip into the clay pot.The water that drips
through all this becomes lye water in the cooking pot.
My small clay pots can be used to start seedlings for a garden.
If I find other uses for my inventory,I will post them.

in regard to the OP, i'm sorry to hear about your anxiety over it, but i'd say you should just keep living and enjoying your current life as long as possible. you don't want something that may not even happen to distract from the things you love and dream of.
it's wonderful to be prepared, i'm not arguing against preparation in the least, and if something does happen (which i think is very likely), then you and yours will ideally be able to survive it as comfortably as possibly thanks to your preparation. if nothing happens, however, i just think you would be sad to look back on the things you might have missed out on by being totally fatalistic.
so again, my advice is to devote only a set amount of time every week or month to emergency preparedness training with your family, and only a set amount of your income designated toward survival gear/supplies and apart from that, put it out of your mind until it happens.
i, on the other hand, am unlike most people, my dream IS for the STHF. the only times i've felt life was worth living so far were in the rare circumstances where it was live or die. my existence seems so mundane that i couldn't think of anything better than a worldwide 'reset' button being pressed, after which i only have one solid, meaningful purpose in life: to survive.

I spend a lot of time on ATS and Slayer's hangout.While I was in
Slayer's hangout,I looked through his picture gallery.I saw a picture
of a happy couple and I started to think...

I am going to give my wedding business one more try.I love helping
couples with their weddings and parties,it's a deep passion of mine.
I know if I spend as much time on my business as I do here on ATS,
I will be alright.

I have to spend less time on ATS,if I want to make something of this.
I want to thank Slayer69 for being an inspiration to me.I am not quitting!
I won't be around as much until after spring.Don't party too hard,I'll
be back!