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Originally posted by fritz
Erasedhistory, eh?! Your name kind of says it all.
But I just don't get it! You write very eloquently and with such a depth of feeling, that I wonder whether or not you really intend to top yourself?
May I be so bold and ask how old you are?
If you are reasonably old like me, say late fifties with not much left to live for, well hey mate, don't top yourself just because you feel there is nothing worth living for!
Have you ever been to the Djebel in Dhofar Province, Oman and seen the mountains turn pink?
Have you ever been to northern Norway, Greenland or Alaska and seen the Aurora Borialis?
Have you ever made love to a beautiful women on a beach as the sun sets, casting it's golden glow over you?
Have you ever been to Kenya on Safari or watched as gorrillas romp around you in Rwanda?
Have you ever been to Borneo and played with Orang Utans?
Have you ever donned a uniform and served your country?
Have you ever helped out somebody less fortunate than yourself?
If you can answer YES to any of these questions, then friend I envy you because I do not have enough time left in this world to accomplish a little of what you have achieved!
I dream of one day going to Zion Wildlfe Gardens near Wangarai in Northern New Zealand, to walk with and stroke Tiger cubs.
If on the other hand you have not seen or experienced any of these things, then you owe it to yourself to live your life as large as possible.
Go skydiving or base jumping/bungee jumping in New Zealand!
Go swimming with dolphins or watch wales mate off the coast of California!
Do whatever it takes to make a special person happy and, in so doing, discover happiness in yourself.
So my friend, if your post was a long winded suicide note, it was beautifully written. But you should grab hold of it, screw it up and then tear it in to little pieces.
By doing that, you will start to live your life the way it was meant to be.
[edit on 27-10-2009 by fritz]