posted on Oct, 27 2009 @ 12:12 PM
I decided to post this in "Psychology, Philosophy and Metaphysics" cuz I think this category suits this topic best. Mods if I'm mistaken please
So, I have a memory of when I was about 3 or 4 years old. We used to have a house at Shawnegan Lake on Vancouver Island, and we often swam in the
lake. My cousins were awesome swimmers, but myself and my sister were just learning and we always wore lifejackets in the water.
It was always the 5 of us that would go, myself, 2 cousins, my sis, and my aunt.
The memory goes like this. My 2 cousins are already in the water swimming away. Me, my sis, and my aunt are on the dock and my aunt is helping my sis
with her lifejacket. I don't know why, but all of a sudden, I had the notion that it would be a good idea to jump in.
As it turns out, this was not such a good idea and I sank like a rock.
I panicked, and I swallowed water. I remember touching the lake bottom before being grabbed by my aunt and pulled back to the surface. I remember
everything about this moment, the mud on the lake bottom, seaweeds all blurry and distorted cuz of the water.
My aunt pulls me back to the surface and onto the dock, I was coughing and choking, however at no point was I unconscious. I remember feeling very
weak and rubber limbed.
This is a memory I have had since this time, all my life I remember this. However when I question my aunt about it she denies it, saying it never
happened. My sis was too young to remember at all. My 2 cousins have since passed away in separate tradgedys. There is no way to confirm this, but
my aunt has no reason to lie about it. Could this be a dream that somehow transformed itself to a vivid memory??
I have other memories like this, I'm not sure if they happened or not. I decided to write about this one, because it is amongst the more benign.
Do other ATSers have memories they are not sure of? It doesn't seem likely, but could this be a symptom of mental illness, manifesting at the age of
ATS write me back with your wierd, hazy memories, I'd love to hear similar stories.
[edit on 27-10-2009 by red_leader]