posted on Oct, 27 2009 @ 12:49 AM
This thing happened to me several months ago but I'm still trying to get over it, so I thought I share it here and get some feedback.
Flashback to 2008. I was single and happy. Made many great friends at work to which I shared a lot of incredible moments with. It was truly a great
year. January 2009, this new guy entered our work group. I was blown out, there was something about him that attracted me instantanly. Two days later
we made a party in our workplace. He was still new and was trying to fit in, so the first time I talked to him I told him that we should go out on buy
the food (he had a bike). Although I didn't told anyone, everyone appeared to know that I liked him. So later at that party two girlfriends, him and
me we're out talking about something, I don't remember exactly what but I think it was about homosexuality (BTW I was openinly gay at work and this
guy knew it). Then one of the girls asked him if he had a girlfriend, he said no. She then asked him if he liked girls and he said no again. It
wasn't a joke, he didn't laugh and noone did, we just kept on going with the conversation.
But I got a little scared, because it was the first time that guy I liked that much was available (I tend to fall for straight guys... pathetic, I
know). During the week I got to know him and it was like... like the guy was made for me in every single way, so I just said to myself that, for the
first time, I would try to be open to the posibility to have a serious relationship with this guy. A week later we were pretty close, and the whole
group planned a trip to a town nearby on the weekend. That day he picked me up and drove me to where we were all going to meet. We were all talking
and he passed behind me and caressed my neck while noone was watching (on top of that, a couple of days before when noone wanted to make the trip he
told me that we should both go and camp, he had a tent we could both fit into). I thought it was weird but anyway. That day I also had a party in my
house for my brother's birthdate, so I told him that he had to take me home later and he told that "it would cost me *wink*", so I invited him to
Later, we were at the town and we all got pretty drunk. Near us there were another group, and the guy out of the blue told me "it sucks that I can't
tell you that that girl is hot because you're gay". He meant it as a joke, not an offense, but I got awfully mad... He was straight after all?
Anyway, he drove me to my place later and he came to the party with me but I couldn't stand to see him.
Time went by. It came to a point that we were like a married couple without the sex. Where I was, he was. He called me all the time, we made trips
everywhere... We even went to another town just the two of us on Valentine's day, for christ sake. We had the whole dinamics, we picked on eachother.
I couldn't understand anything. A lot of things happened which I won't detail because it would take me forever, but during one of those I was pretty
down and I googled his nickname on Google, and I found some comments he made on some videos by some gay guy, and he told him that he "had a very
kissable face" and that he "would love to go to prom with him