I've been meaning to create this thread, but I was worried about how I was going to assimilate it. It's all jumbled up here, so please bear with
I am going to cover two topics: Pain, and the lessons to be learned from life in general. Like I said, it may be jumbled. Maybe not. Lets see...
I've gone through alot of pain in my life. I'm sure you have, I'm sure the sole survivor of a family massacre does, and I'm sure that people in
3rd world countries have it bad as well...
But I used to think, "Oh, poor me" all the time. Sooner or later I realized what I typed in the previous "paragraph".
I don't want to beat you all over the head with my sad stories, because that's not exactly the point of this OP. What I want to share is my current
mind-set about my "ride in life" and what I've come to realize about it all.
The pain I am talking about in particular is mental pain. Physical pain applies as well, however.
So let me say it like this: While I still deal with some hardships to this day, I've come to realize that it's all about learning. Every time a
traumatic experience happens to us and we make it through, we really are stronger on the other side. It's all about experience. The more pain we feel
(IMO), the more experience we have about life.
And I used to laugh at the saying, "What doesn't kill you makes you stronger". I laughed because the pain and uncomfortability of life was still
destroying me even when the smoke cleared. I never felt better, and that saying seemed like nonsense to me. It all made sense once I shifted my
Now some of us (especially myself) may not understand the first time or even the 20th time (me) why bad things happen. My conclusion is that I really
think the point of life is to just literally "feel".
Check it out: That body that you and I are wearing is especially known for "feeling". We complain when we deal with pain, but we don't complain
when it's all good. But no one can go through life and stay right in between happiness and sadness, or pain and joy, however (and obviously). Life is
always going to be a roller coaster ride.
Another thing I have noticed is that there are lessons to be learned EVERYWHERE. Now, I will admit right now that while I may see them as they come, I
may not learn from them right then and there. And as it happens, I will acknowledge the fact that, "Hey, I should learn from this", but no. My
emotions, feelings - my body in general will go against it. It seems after a millions tries, however, I will finally learn that lesson, only to be
confronted with another one. And another...
I am not talking about anything like "God giving us lessons". That's a moot point concerning this OP (at least that is how I am asking it to be, if
you religious folks would let me). Besides, I'm an Atheist and there is not going to be any changing that.
Like I said, I'm sorry if this came out in a jumble. This was a hard one for me to put together for some odd reason.
So, anyway, I am not too fond of pain. I also have Anxiety Disorder (feels pretty bad), and that is what really drives me crazy. But I've learned to
embrace not just that, but anything bad that comes my way. I am actually starting to see the good things about this "pain". The more bad things I
deal with, the bigger my "pain bank" is. I consider that "pain bank" wisdom of some sort.
Also, we all know pain is extremely subjective. Who am I to say that I have it the worst? That's not the issue. Me losing a loved one could be the
same as Paris Hilton getting her dog stepped on and dying. There's no way to measure it, and it's not even the point. It's all comes down to this:
If you make it through a painful situation, you have the opportunity to learn from it - however that is possible...
Of course this is just my perception.
And I'm not even close to having this down to a tee. No one is - that's what makes us Human! I still curse the skies when the anxiety is ripping me
to shreds or when something bad happens. But when all is said and done, there is peace of mind gained from it.
More pain = more wisdom in my eyes.
I think we are hear to learn - anything and everything - as much as a finite being can. Life is boot-camp for the soul!
I hope this hit home for some of my fellow ATS'ers.
And I just wanted to point out that me making a post like this is incredible for me. I was always the negative guy, and the one who didn't give a
flying you-know-what about ANYTHING. But I decided to hang in. I even made it past wanting to kill myself, and THAT was my turning point.
[edit on 10/10/2009 by impaired]