posted on Oct, 8 2009 @ 05:12 PM
Hello - I have always been extremely doubtful of anything supernatural, mystical, religous or not accepted by main-stream science. Until I learned
that 90% of what I had been taught is a lie or half-truth or misdirection. After digesting much information, I have determined the "easiset" thing I
can do to prove something "supernatural" is to have an oobe. I have been interested in lucid dreaming & oobe for a little while now. However, I
barely ever remember any of my dreams.
In my past attempts I did manage something which, from the literature I have read, seems to be along the correct path - or else it was some weird
mental-body control. I read and listened to many different methods and have tried a few of them. At first I would try to leave my body. I would try to
be completely relaxed and calm and at the same time strain "out" or "up." On one of these attempts I started to feel a tingling in one of my feet
which seemed similar to when your foot falls asleep, but not so intense. I thought, at the time, that it was kind of odd because I was lying
comfortably in bed and didn't see how my foot could have fallen asleep. So I sort of focused on that and I was able, by concentrating (while not
concentrating), to move the tingling sensation up my leg and eventually through the rest of my body. It took me a little while to make this sensation
travel up the length of my body (and it was kind of distracting around my genitals). Also, when I got around the top of my chest area, I became very
slightly concerned about what effect it might have on my lungs/ breathing for some reason. When I finally got to my head it seemed even harder than
before to make any progress and eventually and this point I got distracted by something or lost my concentration.
I tried doing that a couple more times and managed to make myself have an orgasm with no physical stimulation, but not very much else that I can
That didn't seem to be working, and I felt that I was straining too hard or my body would become all tensed up or something. But I kind of abandoned
that for a while. Then, at some point, I started playing some relaxing music while I was falling asleep and one day:
last night I went to sleep and for the past week or so I have been playing some soft & relaxing music while I go to sleep. So I was getting through
the sade part and drifting off to sleep - but I hadn't been trying for too long & I was tired so I was going to fall asleep quickly when I started to
have some really vivid imagings. I guess dreams, if that is what I was doing at that time, are exactly like closing your eyes and visualizing
something cause it was in the same washed-out-looking image-on-the-backs-of-my-eyelids look - I can't tell if there were actual colors, but it seems
like there were. but that is the same with all of my dreams. -
I was still definitely awake, and started dreaming of two people - and I guess it was myself and some lady, but I was viewing us from the 3rd person
perspective of some unseen observer. Then I thought that if I am dreaming I should take a look at a clock or watch or something cause it will not be
able to display a coherent or unchanging time or something like that. So I "forced" discontinuity onto the dream and "saw" my arm lift into the
3rd-person perspective's point of view - this caused a change in the dream and seemed to make the scene I was originally watching sort of freeze and
some weird high-pitched but not intrusive sound sounded. It had a digital watch on the wrist with wildly changing numbers - it looked like time was
going backwards based on the direction the numbers would change (it seemed like they would rotate up, instead of rotating down). Then I thought maybe
my preconceptions are messing it up and tried to make the numbers stay steady, but I guess my thinking about it took me out of the lucid dream state,
because that whole scene faded away - it seemed to dwindle away to the horizion and I was back behind my eyelids again minus the vivid imagery.
Then the next night I had some suprising results:
I had a couple of adventures - when I first went into that state I couldn't figure out what to do or where to go. I guess I was overwhelmed by having
every single option open to me. But then I decided I would try to prove that the government was lying or doing bad. So I flew to DC. But when I got
there it was some huge tangled maze of warped-looking buildings. So I thought that I need to be more specific or plan this out better if I want to do
or observe something like that.
So I said, "ok, lets go to the moon" and flew up there. That seemed really strange and I couldn't really tell what I was seeing - if I was seeing
my trip to the moon or if I couldn't make out what was there. But eventually I was able to see this grotesque-looking lifeform. It seemed small and
looked kind of goopey and it looked like it had a smile on it's face, but that might have been just how it's head & mouth are shaped. I immediately
thought "that looks grotesque" - and I might have said that aloud or something - but who knows - then I said - "hi, my name is Ian." "I come from
earth" but it didn't respond and I said "who are you? Where are you from? what are you? what's your name?" But he didn't respond. I think I
apologized for saying he was grotesque at some point but I am not sure - so I looked around the moon and saw some really bizarre architecture - I saw
many spiky-black-arching columns everywhere. It had the same warped-look that the buildings in DC had so maybe that is an artifact of the dreaming or
something. But it looked crazy and I saw that the moon is artificially created or is hollow or something.
Then I said - ok let's go to the edge of the universe if there is one. - so thataway --------->
and I started seeing galaxies or stars or lights or something flying by me and I did that for a while and covered a lot of distance but I am not sure
if I was looping back around or not. So either the universe goes on forever or else it loops back around and is kind of like a bubble with "space"
on the inisde of the bubble (it loops up, not down).
Then I guess I thought about that too much or something cause I kind of woke up or went somewhere else or something - I forget how the transition went
but I was in some kind of room and I guess I could fly around, since both myself and the others were floating around - I was a little blue guy. I was
in a dwarf-like body with light blue skin and I was with antoher guy and a girl both little blue people. Then I forget what happene exactly - some
event or conversation or something occurred and then it seemed like nothing was happening so I said to the girl "can we have sex?" and so we
started doing that for a while - that whole act seemed more like my mind directing my dream than at any other point while dreaming. And I don't know
if I felt slightly guilty or if I just wanted my girlfriend to join but I said "Melanie too!" But I think that made me think about her too much or
else it just made me wake up a little because I went out of that state pretty soon after that.
Then I went back in and said "ok, who am I?" "what am I?" and apparently I am this little largely smiling vaguely humanoid-shaped light - but I
couldn't discern any arms or legs. Or at least that is what seemed to lift up out of my body and what my focus was upon when I was asking that
Then I went to sleep normally.
So I can not really tell what this is exactly. It feels different from when I consciously imagine something. So it is either my subconscious
imagination or else it is something external. But it is cool either way!
What should I try to see/ do/ observe/ learn next???
And what do you think about all this crazy crap? heheh
Then, the following night (sep 16th) I tried again but ran into an impediment:
me: I tried to do that again last night!!!!!!
this time right when I got into that state
I saw like two humanoid monster-looking people
10:42 AM some scary-monster-looking people
so I tried talking to them
but I couldn't hear anything they were saying
or else they weren't talking
10:43 AM and then I think they threatend me or something
so I was like # you, you can't do anything to me & you can't hurt me & you can't even affect me
and then I think they did affect me some how
10:44 AM I felt some weird sensation by my ear
and then my body had some weird effects
10:45 AM and for some reason I was thinking I was just poisoned
and I said - "no that's silly, I must be imagining it"
10:46 AM but I felt like some weird wave
of sensation go through my body
or like some pulsing thing
I don't really know how to describe that
and so I thought about that for a little while and about how poison interacts with the body
10:47 AM and then I stopped and tried to relax more
butI was never able to get back into that state
so I went to sleep normally
Then, that night my girlfriend dumped me! (she came back to me the following week) - but it kind of messed up my state of mind for trying to do
whatever I was doing. And I have not been able to do it again since.
So? What was I doing?