I have very strong and inexplicable feelings of fondness, deep feelings, for him. This has never changed.
Around when I was 15, I left home with my parents' blessing. I was almost 16, and I could not tolerate living in the household I was in, so I left. I
lived in the streets. I met a young man, he was 19 at the time, and he let me come to live with him. We were together for almost a year, and it was
one of the most horrible times in my life.
However, during this time, were also two of the most powerful experiences in my life. The third one I will post about later.
The first one happened when we lived in a cottage. The cottage was on the land of his parents who's home was also on the property. It was a huge plot
of land with orange groves, and was in Land O Lakes Florida. The lake was called Lake Thomas.
One night, we had decided to go fishing. We thought we may catch some catfish and perhaps some brim to cook up the next day. It was about 10:30 pm. We
were sitting on the dock over the water when I noticed it was very still and calm. This man was sitting with me, to my right, right next to me. I got
an odd feeling, as though someone was watching me. He must have felt the same thing, because as I turned my head slightly to the right and then looked
up into the sky behind us, I could see him in my peripheral vision doing the exact same thing.
There was no sound, just a huge..inexplicably close.. object hovering above and behind us. At almost the exact moment we laid eyes upon it, it shot
off out in front of us, out over the lake and beyond - in mere instants. The glimpses I got, I will also remember the rest of my life. I remember
windows, no sound, no wind, no crickets, no.. nothing.. but windows, and the very distinct feeling someone was watching us.
I remember lights around it, at first, I thought the lights flashed in a circle, but as it moved away, it took on almost a zig-zag appearance, and I
am no longer certain if the lights flashed in a circle or if it was some type of flight pattern. It vanished off the horizon, which was a good way
off. It went up as it went out and across, and I am a horrible judge of distance. Just suffice to say, this is a smallish lake, but the horizon
After we watched it disappear, we sat in silence for a while, not speaking or even hardly moving. I didn't look at him, but I said, "I didn't see
anything, did you?" To this day, I still don't understand that...
I felt suddenly tired and asked if he was ready to go in and he agreed. When we got to the cottage which was just a short walk up the path, I saw the
alarm clock next to the bed. It was 2:30 am. I just slept. We never spoke of it again.
Moving ahead a few months, we were living in a hotel room in Tampa. It was late, an I was tired. I lay down on the bed and he was beside me, to my
right. The television was on, and the light was on. I just remembered wishing I could die. My life was very bad at this time, I won't go into detail
now, but I am being honest about how I felt.
I don't even remember closing my eyes, but the next thing I knew, I was outside the hotel on the sidewalk. I could feel air, almost like a breezy
night, but I also felt very very odd. I was not visible to the people walking on the road but ddn't know it at that moment, and the world around me
was extremely different.
It was dark, of course, because it was night, but all of the lights were intensely bright, and I was gliding really, not even walking, down the
sidewalk. I was very aware of presences with me, presences I could not see, but I sensed. It was gloomy, even darker, and cold and lonely though I was
not alone. I started walking down the sidewalk, away from the hotel, where to, I have no idea.
There were two young men on the sidewalk walking towards me, talking. This was when I first realized something was not normal.