posted on Oct, 2 2009 @ 01:32 AM
Several years ago I was brutally beaten, raped and held hostage for over 3 hours! I managed to escape using my brain and my gift of gab!! This is
an up close and personal view of what goes through the mind during a brutal
attack and what it takes to live to tell bout it.
As one who has survived and lived through this horrific experience I can share all I did to stay alive! I share this with all women young and old and
only one goal in mind. God forbid you ever find yourself in this situation maybe , just maybe this knowledge could save your life one day.
Several years ago, 2:30am, I awoke with a start asking "whose there?" Frantically scanning my surroundings I suddenly noticed a pair of eyes
staring up at me from the foot of my bed. At first I was completely confused, I thought "this strange man made a mistake and is in the wrong
apartment by accident." I do not believe the mind can fully comprehend what is about to take place given the gravity of the situation. There is a
delay in processing. When I was able to understand the reality of the situation, I was gripped by pure fear. Next, the involuntary response of
screaming takes place, that however, set everything else in motion. I fought like hell, but was quickly overpowered. His final blow to my face was
so hard it put me into a state of autonomic response. . Once I stopped trying to hit him, he stopped hitting me.
If I had one piece of advice to give , I would say this.
*****UNLESS YOU ARE 100% SURE YOU CAN HURT TO MAIM OR KILL, DO NOT ATTEMPT TO ATTACK YOUR
*****i HAD A WEAPON A 2 POUND WRENCH SITTING ON MY NIGHTSTAND, i KNEW IF I PICKED THAT UP
AND HESITATED FOR 1 SECOND HE WOULD HAVE BEAT ME TO DEATH!!!!! I AVERTED MY EYES FROM
THE WRENCH AND PRAYED HE DIDN'T NOTICE!! IT WORKED AND I AM HERE TODAY BECAUSE I DID NOT
PICK THAT WEAPON UP!!*****Sorry for the all caps, but I needed to drive the point home.
We have all heard to try and vomit or urinate on your attacker anything to deter them. Unfortunately reality doesn't lend itself to this idea, here
When our survival instinct called fight or flight is activated a sudden rush of adrenaline is dumped into your body.
Given the stress, this is a very good thing. However, as this occurs your parasympathetic nervous system, the mechanism that controls bodily
function, urination, vomiting etc. shuts down. So while this sounds ideal, chances are it is not going to happen.
So what can you do?
First things first, CALM DOWN you need to be clear headed if you are going to have a fair chance at surviving.
Bottom line, survival, that is your only goal!! It is not my intention to offend with my next statement.
The violent act of rape itself is horrible, but SO WHAT! Let it happen! I say this as a RAPE SURVIVOR! Please understand, your one and only goal is to
STAY ALIVE!! While he is in the act you are still breathing, pay no attention to what is going on, I know this will seem almost impossible but you
must do it. Start planning your next move.
A rapist rules his victim by intentionally instilling as much fear as possible in his victim. There will be fear! DO NOT GIVE IN TO THE FEAR!!
The worst thing you can do is let your mind start imagining all the horrible things that are going to happen to you.!
Please understand this.....You are living second by second, you do not have the luxury of future tripping! You must stay in the moment!
Now I know you are thinking how does one do that? Practice, practice, practice!! Start now! Go over every possible solution you can think of if
you were to find yourself in that situation. If you start now and repeat this process over and over, not only will you feel more empowered, less
fear, but your response will be ingrained in your
subconscious, an involuntary response. Think of running on auto-pilot. Train your brain! It is your best and most powerful weapon!!
I survived by talking to my assailant! Anything and everything!! Asking questions! Yes, this pissed him off but while he had to think about the
question, he had to disengage from his own emotion i.e. his aggression. Very hard for someone to beat you and talk to you at the same time.
Flattery, you can and will say anything. Again I'm talking, he's thinking and I'm still breathing! Ask for basic information, examples, "where
do you work?" hobbies? What kind of car do you have? etc. Small talk really, but you are also looking for anything he will slip up and give you,
that may help police nail him. Just keep him talking!! This also helps him lower his guard, knowing when and what to do when the opportunity
presents itself is going to be key to your survival.
My escape happened after constant talking I was wearing him down. That's when I lunged in his face and went on a tirade that would make a sailor
blush!! This caught him off guard and presented and opportunity for me to run like hell. I did! My adrenaline sent me through a screen door and
running down the street screaming FIRE!!!!! 15 calls went to 911 as a result of me screaming fire and help. I also ran down the MIDDLE of the street
not on the sidewalk or near the bushes. Help soon followed.
Let me please say that no matter what you do to survive IS the right thing to do. These are the things that worked for me. Feel free to ask me
questions I will be as open and honest as possible.
Thanks for letting me share,
[edit on 2-10-2009 by paxnatus]