posted on Oct, 9 2009 @ 07:11 AM
thankyou for the post.
i have always suffered depression which i blamed on my parents being alcoholic. it became terrible when my dad was murdered 7 years ago, i started
drinking heavily, i lost my job and my partner. my family did not speak to me. i was a mess and even tried to kill myself. i could not take it
anymore. i became really ill. i had a breakdown and didnt leave my home for 7 months.
i had an experience that i dont really understand.. i had been drinking, not eating and just on my own for the 7 months.i was on my knees crawling
about the floor as i could not walk anymore (muscular atrophy) and caught a glimpse of myself in a mirror. i didnt recognise myself. i had lost so
much weight and looked like i was dying from drinking each day into oblivion. i was in pain and i asked the universe if there was a god .. please help
me now. i shouted it then cried for hours.
i am now 4 years sober, have a great boyfriend, two cats, a nice flat, a great job - as a holistic therapist, am talking to my family again, and i
stopped smoking as i have a healthy lifestyle. i have got qualifications, confidence, respect, friends and i love life most of the time.. although at
times i still get down like everyone else.
i still dont really know what happened... it was as if the universe helped me.i could not have done it alone. i went to a help group and got
counselling yes. i also stopped drinking from the moment i asked for help.. and later stop smoking. i started eating healthy and getting lots of
i am still on anti depressant meds. it has been a rollercoaster of a ride. but i got through it. may be i will get off them one day.. but i am doing
well just now.
one thing i did notice was that reiki helped balance me. i am on the holistic path now.. i do massage, aromatherapy, reiki, reflexology and other
energy healing. now i am on my path i am feeling better. i am more balanced and insynch with source. it took time, patience and real determination..
it was worth it. i just took life a day at a time, and i believed that i deserve to be here and be happy!!!!!!
love and light