Ah Tamale.
It would be incredibly easy for me to dismiss you communication. You know this perhaps as well as you have endured my ignorance before.
There is a box into which your thoughts must fit, lest they spill out and get on my shoes. I paid good money for these, ya know.
I appreciate you stepping out of what so many would perceive as emotional or psychic safety and exposing your own weakness and fears. Without dancing
too much with bunnies, I must say I applaud you effort.
When I was a child, I had recurring instances of what I can only describe as an energy wave entering my mind. While I tried to sleep on one occasion,
I could visualize it. Much like the old cartoons of the bulge of water going through the hose, but the line was straight and it wasn't water.
When I got older, my dad would joke about how if you cranked up the radio (he was a way out there geek) at just the right frequency, you could really
jerk with people's minds. He joked about watching people squirm, unable to explain why they were freaking out.
I lost a little bit of my love for mystery then and just assumed that there were people out there that like to screw with others, for the sheer hell
of it.
I have to be honest, but you've taught me to also be a little more thoughtful, so I find myself highly skeptical. Of course, my skepticism is nothing
new and usually just proves to be another horizon I have to walk to, and through.
The thought of psychosis comes to mind, but I am not a shrink. I know the mind is more powerful than I can understand. All manner of miracle and
mysterious happening has been attributed to its often hidden abilities.
I am also led to the thought of PTSD...facing demons whose sight is more than we are capable of rationalizing but whose voice is far too loud to
silence.
Do you find it odd, or common that a self-proclaimed 'rational' human being has such difficulty attributing the physical manifestations you have
witnessed to otherworldly influence?
I don't expect 'evidence', my friend, nor do I wish to blindly indulge in fantasy. I've sadly lost most of that ability as I've aged.
I do find myself very interested in your experiences though. I won't discount your interpretation. I just have no similar experience, that I am aware
of that correspond.
'mind control' is a monster who's name has often been spoken in this place and the transmission of electrical impulses congealed into patterns of
thought is not something that we have the knowledge to discount.
Your theory is as plausible as any and I appreciate your sharing it. I hope you gain some insight and in doing so, do not become so jaded by ridicule
that you are unwilling to share it.