posted on Mar, 10 2010 @ 08:20 PM
Well, i can very well understand his feelings. I feel bored, too.
Life could be a hell of a good experience. But when you get born in our time, you are born a slave. You cannot really choose what you would like to
experience, you get only to choose from a list of things that egoistic greedy power hungry people made. You can for the most part try to play part in
the greed game, if you don't want that you can still try to live a different life and to help to make the world a better place, but that option is
I personally would like to build a hut in a woody area, grow lovely fruits, smoke some ganja and help my neighbours, living in harmony with nature and
so forth. But can i do that? Only harshly limited. Today i can only be glad i can atleast grow some fruits in the House, or go outside for a walk in
the wood. But i don't even know if i will be able to do that in the future. The greed and destruction doesn't seem to end soon.
Let's face it, humanity created hell on earth, endless struggling, suffering for everyone and everything. satan couldn't make it better.
When you realize how hollow and pointless our way to live is, you are bound to get bored if you are trapped in society without escape.
That's one side of the coin, the other side is we are all in the same frelling boat, and if anything we can atleast give our life meaning by helping
others that need us and to try to ease the suffering, educate people. If all good people go, there will be no hope for a better future. That's why i
I want to share a very personal experience, that was an eye opener for me.
It was around 10 years ago. My life sucked, i saw no end to my suffering, i felt deeply depressed and i only wished to be gone.
One evening i was sitting in my bed, crying and wishing i would be able to die. After like an hour of doing that, i made a very strong wish, calling
out to anyone or anything to please tell me why i cannot die, why i have to suffer. Soon after that i fell asleep.
Next thing i remember is very hard to describe, but i will try. Imagine a camera flight scene, that camera was my vision. First thing i saw was a
pitch black body, wich was not exactly shaped like my real body, i believed it to be my soul. My vision flew over it. Then the vision turned to my
surrounding. I got aware of beeing in some kind of space, it was like beeing in some kind of eye of a tornado, my surrounding was moving like that and
it was also mostly black. In the middle of it was my soul laying. Everything was dark around it. The vision flew back to my soul and i was more in
some kind of ego perspective of that soul. I asked „ can i die already?“ a very calm and peaceful voice, a male voice with no exact location,
answered „no, your time hasn't come yet“. I asked another question „why is it so dark around me?“ i mean't why is everything so negative for
me. The voice answered „that is yourself“. Then i awoke. It was 3 am and my bed felt very energetic.
What did this teach me? It teached me that even when we cannot always realize what our purpose is, we have one. We are part of the balance. And it
showed me that it was partly my own fault to be in such a negative state, instead of trying to change things, i bathed in self pity(?). I didn't even
see that it is atleast partly in my power to change or atleast try to change things that make me unhappy.
Life might get harder, with all the crap going on, but im sure a more positive balance will come, i cannot imagine god want's this to continue. And
if you put your energy into making the world a better place, out of love, for everyone and everything, god might back you up. In any case, change will
come, so don't loose hope. If you wan't a better future, a more meaningful life, why not put your time into working on that?
Lasting happiness comes from compassion and love. Afterall we are one, suicide means letting yourself down and creating more suffering for yourself.