Thanks to both of you from the bottom of my heart!!!
Im glad that sharing this can bring something positive to this place!
I write for her each day.. And manifest the love that I about to embark upon.
And I thank you SD, and Santa Clause!
And now I will share just one of my writtings with you all that I did for her..
In hopes that these words are send out into the universe and the universe hears me through your heads by reading my thoughts!
She walks the path that I have been down before.
She walks in my footsteps, that my feet have left behind.
She reminds me of myself in time once long past ago..
Tho in a different light, and a different clothes..
The hat she wears is not like my own..
But the path she walks, I want her to know shes not alone.
While she walks upon this earthly path..
She walks by herself, and herself alone..
Many walk past, and admire her soul.. Admire her beauty and will do anything to behold.
But she knows what she wants.. Yet not quite sure where she is going.
She knows where she wants to be.. But not quite sure how to get there..
The footsteps I left in the sand below..
Will in all hopes guide her home.
The path I walked is a lonely path indeed..
For 6 long years I have been alone..
And in one fell sweep, she picks me off my feet. And lifts my soul..
Showing me that I can contiune to go..
Going down my path I will meet her in the middle.
I will not hold her down, nor tell her how to live..
I will just be there when she wants me to appear..
From this mist is where I came.. And into the mist is where I will go..
For a short peroid of time, she must move on.
but the sands of time do not cover the foot steps I have left behind..
If she is true, and if she is of light.. She will look down and see the footsteps before her..
Like a light in the darkness.. Like crumbs on the ground.
They will guide her, they will show her that she doesnt have to be alone..
She only has to walk this lonely path for a short amount of time.
Before she catches up with me, on the path of time..
The heart is in the sand.. Where we will stand.
Meeting back up within that circle of light.
Within the circle of love..
She knows what my plight is.. And she ready to take it for what it is..
I will always be honest with her.. No matter how hard it is for me.
As the truth to the matter is that if I wasnt true.. Then the path I pick would crumble into the sea..
But the path I pick is one of truth.. And the voices tell me that if I am true and if I am honest.. Then the universe will bestow truth back upon
It might not be easy.. And Im sure it will be hard.. But love is forever, in physical form.
Love is infinte in the spiritual realm.
Even if my touch can not fall upon her head..
Even if my lips can not touch her hand..
She knows shes my goddess.. She knows shes the one.. Who I would spend the rest of my days under this sun...
I would not entrap her.. I would not guilt her.
She knows who I am.. She knows Im more than a man..
She has looked through my heart and see's all that I am..
Tho she has not had the chance to lay down the law.. She is learning that she is not the only one..
Who walks down the hermit path.. Who walks by themselfs..
Even if your alone.. Your never alone with me.
I will hold you in my heart..
And where ever you go.. I will be there..
Within your heart and within your head..
My physical body might not be there..
But my spiritual form will always be there..
For her to know deep in her heart.. For to feel me beyond the physical realm..
We met long ago, and it was just the start to something beauitful..
We met 2 weeks ago, and it was the start to something true...
We will meet up again to take it where it must go..
I will always be here.. Waiting upon the shore.
I will always be her friend, and I will always show her my soul..
I will always lend a hand.. As I know she wants more..
And it doesnt take money, and it doesnt take material goods..
As she is so far beyond that.. As its what I do know..
but for that feeling alone I know she is true.
And not a fake looking for material treasure.
I have a wealth of compassion.. And a horde of love.. I am one of the richest people upon this earth unknown..
She will bring so much out of me, if given the chance.. The chance she has already bestowed upon me, has given me much happyness!
But I know there is more..
Questions to be answered.. And doors to be opened.. Im happy she takes me for all that I am..
When at one time I felt so ruined.
And she told me it was okay...
While the whole time she had much more to say.
Shes worried about her health.. And rightfully so..
I want to be able to shed this.. So we can move on with our lifes..
I want to be healed.. So I can share my love without bars..
So I can share my love with no walls or barriers that would push us apart..
But until that time I will understand.. I made sertin choices that will haunt me, until I am healed..
When she walks down that lonely path.. I pray that she will take me for who I am..
That she will love me and save me..
hold me and not forsake me..
Not only will she save me.. I will have a big part in saving her..
I have something to teach her.. I have something to show her..
As part of her path lead me to me..
And Im starting to see... That her quest in this life is to see me as who I am..
Honest and truthfully take me by the hand..
And show me the kind of love that I can share with her in return..
Its never easy.. And most would run..
many would never even give me this chance..
To share this with her.. To love her and to share all that I am..
To teach her, to walk with her for the time I am given..
When that path is set, we can walk it, we can live it.. Until such is said..
I will love her and honor her for what ever choice is lead.. To what ever path we are taken.. Forever in our heads..
She can walk on the feathers of an angels wings.
I have come to share, I have come to teach..
I have come to learn.. share and love..
Will she be able to see that..
Or will she walk the other way..
The choice is hers.. And I manifest the way..
I manifest her love.. I manifest her choice.
But never will I force her..
Never will I abuse..
The power I am given.. Is hers and only hers.
Never would I cheat.. Never would I lie..
never would I sway, or give into fights..
I want to wait.. So its like magic..
I want to give her something she has never had.
So much I can give her.. And so much she can share..
So much she can do for me.. And not only in bed.
But beyond her body.. and into her mind..
I want to find a home.. And build it with her in mind!
I want to offer her something she has never had before..
But I must keep it silent until the right time.
I already have it.. And its already hers..
But if the timming isnt right, then it would come off the wrong way..
But I want her to know, that I am that one..
The one she has been looking for.. The one that will always be there..
The one who can meet her half way there...
So much still has to be done.. And Im willing to do the work.. IM willing to do what ever it takes..
To show her everything I say is the truth!
While I have not been true to all in my life.
I will always be true to her...
I want to heal, and I want to be saved..
There is so much more to say..
But I will leave it at that for this night..
Sometimes when you say to much, its like not saying enough..
So I pick my words, and share my feelings...
And know that she thinks its perfect timming!
Theres much more writting that I do for her.. But those are for her personally.. yet I feel more than comfortable sharing this little bit with my
friends and folks here on BTS...
There is hope, and the fight for what is right, and the fight for love can overcome all!!