posted on Sep, 11 2009 @ 05:08 AM
Hello everyone, as the title states this is just a thread of my thought. I'm typing this now not with a certain subject (wasn't sure if this was
the forum for it) but more to get out whatever it is I want to share because I feel the need to do so.
So I've been reading threads today and got me thinking of my life and the things I've done and seen and pondered about. Really, I'm just posting
to see others opinions and whether anyone shares such things.
Now where to start. .Question / Statement ONE; Since I was a child (I'm 19 years old) I remember shutting my eyes and seeing all sorts of colourful
kaleidoscope type patterns, complex ones that are ever-changing and highly vibrant and energetic-like (I still see them today everytime I shut my eyes
but no where near as complex and clear as when I was young), so I was wondering is this just a simple thing that happens due to so and so reactions
in the brain causing this to happen or what ? (I'm certain we must all see this as a close friend of mine confirms he used to wonder what it was too
when he was young).
TWO; When I look up at the sky on a sunny blue sky day and stare at one spot of the blueness, I see thousands of little speck orb thingies swirling
around crazily with a mind of its own. What is this? Another brain reaction thing? I used to think it was dust but I blew a breathe of air in front
and to no effect do these things give way. I only see these with the blue sky as a background but it may be happening all the time (a brain thing)
it's just that the backgrounds aren't bright enough / one coloured to be able to spot 'them' out. Also, you know those things you see in the
corner of your eye and you try to follow it but it keeps moving away and you can't directly look at it (only with peripheral)? What is this?
Obviously something on the eye lens / in the eye (piece of dust? spec of eye lube stuff?) just want to know what it is.
Also when I look up at the dark starry night I don't see a sheet of black with white dots, I see a cluster of stars surrounded by blankets of umm I
don't know how to explain it, energy, LIFE is what screams out of my mind when I stare. It's not black but like twinkling mosiac of rapidly
changing specs of colourness, LIFENESS.
THREE; Just an experience I've had that I thought I would throw in. One time out in the country under a starry night under the influence of a thing
that lets me visual meditate clear as day (say I try imagine and focus on a pyramid in my minds eye I can never hold it and keep it there very long
but in this state I can see it as clear as my reflection in a mirror), I had a very odd experience (brought on by another factor) but it was very odd
like I was in the clock cogs of the universe,'the behind the scenes of it all'. One moment I was standing there chatting to friends next thing I
know It feels like I just stopped existing in my physical body and in this second my feeings are "fright, panic, of the unknown" then an instant
later I say to myself "why this feeling?" and a voice says "just let go". It was as if I was trying to fight it so when I heard that last voice I
just instantly changed my whole feeling out put and simply 'let go'. When I did that it felt like I fell out of my body but I was still seeing
through my eyes and my friends were all around but everything was different, I was connected to everyone and everything by these fine threads and
there was no 'air' everything was solified everything was one, the very space infront of me was solid thus linking me to everyone and everything.
Everything was slowed riiight down BUT my one friend who had done the same thing as I did was not slow and odd looking like everyone else he was free
and flowing through this place without the slow laggness of moving through this solidness he was happy as days and floating around smiling at me and
then I came back to normalness. I was so shocked and confused and had thought I had actually died. .