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Originally posted by StevenDye
Given the choice right now, if never having been born...I would take it.
I suffer depression (A doctor I was seeing for heart issue reccomeneded I see my GP about it, but I refuse to for my own reasons.) and I've been on the edge of killing myself over 10 times in the past three years. And I don't speak to any of the people who stopped me from doing it anymore... one I just drfited away from, but the rest all suddenly hurt me for differing reasons.
I'm 17... I'm selfish, I can be horrible without even knowing it, I have done things that...even I'm disgusted with at times. All around me I see people achieving whilst I slowly drift on by.
All around me I see people happy, finding someone they care about...whilst I get hurt continually.
And all the time you have to act happy, because if you don't then there must be something wrong with you...because other people try to live your life for you.
I wont kill myself, because thats not fair on the people left behind....but a chance not to have been born, now that sounds great to me.
Originally posted by XXXN3O
You said your selfish so whats stopping you from being the opposite?
You said you have done things that disgust yourself, whats stopping you from doing things that make you feel proud of yourself?
You said that other people are trying to live your life for you, thats impossible but other people can try and guide you and will do as you are young. Thats not a bad thing, when you are older you will understand that people who try to push you in directions are only wanting what they think is best for you because you do not know yet.
Dont you see that all along you are making yourself unhappy by not acting the way you want to be in life. Your stopping yourself from living the way you want to and from being happy. The whole depression thing is thrown in just to package the whole thing into one big mess instead. Depression should be called confusion because thats all thats wrong with you, your confused.
[edit on 3-9-2009 by XXXN3O]