Originally posted by AlnilamOmega
firstly, a holy being or anyone who is truly benevolent would not command you to bow before it and pray. I can understand that you felt feelings based on euphoria/happiness, but this is to be expected with such an experience because your mind was probably flooded with hormones and serotonin upon such a manifestation. What I am saying is that such a reaction is likely to have been purely internal.
I understand it's difficult to explain this, but can you at least try to illustrate how you felt this sort of familiarity with this being? Try focusing on what thoughts were going through your head at that time, if you could, please. It may have been an aspect of your subconscious self 'echoing' itself into your mind as you probably had subconscious fears about what you were doing, as a satanist, was not something that you felt totally aligned to.
I say this because of some of the details in your story, such as how your mind 'translated' what you experienced into a particular image. An alternative theory that throws my 'subconscious image of self' in the trash, however, is that this entity is related to Merovingians; descendants of the Annunaki (or the old ones or something as you may have referred to in your former rituals). I say this because of the symbols on the robes, and the condescending tone this person had. Were any symbols triangular or with a cross by any chance, if you could remember?
[Edited on 5/13/2004 by AlnilamOmega]
Textfirstly, a holy being or anyone who is truly benevolent would not command you to bow before it and pray.
Strong's Number: 4566 Sata/n //Original Word Word Origin: Sata/n of Hebrew origin//Transliterated Word Phonetic Spelling: sat-an //Parts of Speech TDNT Noun Masculine 7:151,
Definition: adversary (one who opposes another in purpose or act), the name given to the prince of evil spirits, the inveterate adversary of God and Christ, he incites apostasy from God and to sin, circumventing men by his wiles, the worshippers of idols are said to be under his control, by his demons he is able to take possession of men and inflict them with diseases, by God's assistance he is overcome, on Christ's return from heaven he will be bound with chains for a thousand years, but when the thousand years are finished he will walk the earth in yet greater power, but shortly after will be given over to eternal punishment: a Satan-like man
Strong's Number: 4567 Satana=v //Original Word Word Origin: Satana=v of Aramaic origin corresponding to (4566) (with the definite affix) //Transliterated Word Phonetic Spelling: Satanas sat-an-as'//Parts of Speech TDNT: Noun Masculine 7:151,1007 //Definition: same
Not translated Satan, but means the same: Original Word Word Origin: eÍxqro/v from a primary echtho (to hate) //Transliterated Word Phonetic Spelling: Echthros ech-thros'//Parts of Speech TDNT:hateful (passively, odious, or actively, hostile) //Definition: hated, odious, hateful, hostile, hating, and opposing another, used of men as at enmity with God by their sin, opposing (God) in the mind, a man that is hostile, a certain enemy, the hostile one, the devil who is the most bitter enemy of the divine government
Ge 3:9 - And the LORD God called (8799) unto Adam, and said (8799) unto him, Where art thou?
3:10 - And he said (8799), I heard (8804) thy voice in the garden, and I was afraid (8799), because I was naked; and I hid myself (8735).
3:11 - And he said (8799), Who told (8689) thee that thou wast naked? Hast thou eaten (8804) of the tree, whereof I commanded thee (8765) that thou shouldest not eat (8800)?
3:12 - And the man said (8799), The woman whom thou gavest (8804) to be with me, she gave (8804) me of the tree, and I did eat (8799).
3:13 And the LORD God said (8799) unto the woman, What is this that thou hast done (8804)? And the woman said (8799), The serpent beguiled me (8689), and I did eat (8799).
Ac 26:14 And when we had all fallen to the ground, I heard a voice saying to me in the Hebrew language, 'Saul, Saul, why do you persecute me? It hurts you to kick against the goads.'
Lu 11:15 - But some of them said (5627), He casteth out (5719) devils through Beelzebub the chief of the devils.
11:16 - And others, tempting (5723) him, sought (5707) of him a sign from heaven.
11:17 - But he, knowing (5761) their thoughts, said (5627) unto them, Every kingdom divided (5685) against itself is brought to desolation (5743); and a house divided against a house falleth (5719).
11:18 - If * Satan also be divided (5681) against himself, how shall his kingdom stand (5701)? because ye say (5719) that I cast out (5721) devils through Beelzebub.
11:19 - And if I by Beelzebub cast out (5719) devils, by whom do your sons cast them out (5719)? therefore shall they be (5704) your judges.
Re 3:16 -So then because thou art (5748) lukewarm, and neither cold nor hot, I will (5719) spue (5658) thee out of my mouth.
Sometimes Satan is considered to be the same as Lucifer--that which fell from heaven--fallen angel. Also, there's a lot more than just Satan worshipers who are against the God he's associated with--the god of the Hebrews and Chrisitans. At various times, Christ had to tell his followers, "Get behind me, Satan." Satan means-
Originally posted by jlc163
Let me give you a senario.
Here you are, this boy, looking for power, and you get invloved with one of these groups messing around with Satan, but you don't think it's right, so you are palnning to not only distance yourself, but to also find something that is right. From your age, I'd guess you'd even swing to the extreme of polar opposites--get envolved with Satan's enemy: God. Now, for some crazy reason, Satan doesn't care whether you are directly worshiping him--he was going to lose you with how uncomfortable you felt, anyway, but he didn't want you turning everything over to God. As long as he keeps you divided between him and God, in this no-man's-land, he's keeping you from that great purpose that God has for you. He's still got you. God can't stomach you like you are, so he'd vomit you out.
Notice I didn't say that this was absolutely true, but I do want to ask you: have you ever looked into Christianity--not just listening to those who gripe about it, but looking in to what the basic tennants of the faith are? You went from power-hungry to not wanting anything spiritual. If you don't want it, don't chase it, but I promise you that you won't put this to rest until you chase both sides to it's conclusion.
Otherwise, why are you still worried enough to find people's opinion on this matter?
TextAnd this is what Satan wants you to believe. That Satan doesn't really exist. Possibly the greatest trick sprung
Originally posted by marg6043
The biggest satan in the world is us the human being.
TextWell, can only go on my own experiences here, but the evilest things I have ever encountered were indeed, human beings.
Originally posted by Cassie Clay
At some point I became so sick and feverish that I said "God, I've had enough of this, sorry about the dark stuff, I'll never do it again." And then I hallucinated (or didn't hallucinate) these demons attacking me in my bed and I fought them off with a golden light that I knew was the light of goodness. There were "dead bodies" of the demons littering my floor, and I renounced the Dark Side from that point on.
Originally posted by Darkblade71
And I was hit with a blast of light like I cannot properly describe other than it was many things, emotions, feelings, words, warmth, overbearing and unconditional love.