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Originally posted by CleverNameHere
I know it seems a bit absurd; trust me, you don't know the half of it.
It all goes so deep, I'd rather not start on any particular part of how I became Schizophrenic, as most of it's quite personal. I will give out the details I'm comfortable with, though.
Ask away.
FYI: I am not in any way telling you that the answers I give will or have come true. I am simply giving you a view into a Schizophrenic's mind.
Originally posted by richierich
Refusing medical help is dangerous and ill advised, friend...
You owe it to yourself and society to get with a good doctor and get meds and take them. you might not feel as ' special' but you will be able to interact with others much better...
get professional care that demands meds as a regimen and stay with it...
Originally posted by CleverNameHere
reply to post by loqeth
1. The dominant voice is mine, which is why I refuse meds. I'm able to remain in a half sane, half schizophrenic mindset, which is safe. I'm unsure how many voices there are, as some days there will be more than others, but there are at least two that are always with me.
2. One voice, other than my own, actually works in my favor. Whenever the other of my two regulars talks, it is usually negative: "You will not win. We will get you. You will have to be institutionalized eventually. You cannot escape Us." However, when the kind one speaks, it usually consists of small inspirational comments: "Don't listen to him. We're all in your head. I will be with you no matter what."
Sometimes, I've thought that this voice is God. Other times, I like to think it's a passed loved one encouraging me to continue on my trek.
As for the other random voices, I never know what they're going to say.
3. I've spoken to mental health professionals. I am paranoid schizophrenic, but I am not violent, and have not had any psychotic episodes. It usually remains as a constant buzz in the back of my head. Yes, you can physically feel schizophrenia in your head.
Please, ask any questions you want. I will get to them eventually, even if there are many.
I encourage curiosity.