posted on Aug, 24 2009 @ 02:56 AM
Just wanted to commend you on your post, on your openness and on your own levels of self-awareness and wellness.
Wanted to also throw in some thoughts on this thread:
I commend you for defining your own experience - as really when its all said and done its YOU who experiences what you experience, how you experience
it...no one else.
Sure, others may experience something similar - but it is YOU who is your own expert in what it means and how it relates to you.
I'd encourage you to maintain that. To maintain that hold on the direction and definition of whatever it is you experience.
Let me say this: No one truly knows exactly what it is you experience - only you do. You and you alone. People can guess, they can assess, but
ultimately its a guessing-game - its just some may have different parametres in where and how they *guess*.
As such I don't believe its for any of us, any Mental Health Professional, any Doctor or otherwise to dictate and define your experience for you.
We/they can offer viewpoints, we/they can offer assistance...but ultimately it is you who walks your walk...so I encourage you to hold that personal
power, that self-determination and walk it as you decide.
Let me also say this:
Some may see that as a dangerous thing to say. Some may think that by the very (at least the perceived) nature of Schizophrenia, the
ability to descern whatever it is you need is lost...and some may wonder where on earth I'm coming from - well, I'm coming from here;
I've worked within Mental Health for 14 years now.
For many many years I've been a qualified and experienced Mental Health Nurse, working within Inpatient Wards, Acute Wards, Forensic Units, Community
Mental Health Teams, Crisis Assessment Teams etc.
For the last few years I've also been a qualified DAO (Duly Authorised Officer).
A DAO is a person who is a recognised Senior Mental Health Nurse who is allowed to action the Mental Health Act, meaning I'm sanctioned to assess
people who may be experiencing psychiatric crisis and make a call on whether or not that person needs to be committed to an Inpatient Unit under the
Mental Health Act. Yup - I'm one of those people who can sign a few papers and effectively lock someone up.
I've also just completed my training to be a qualified Senior Nurse Practitioner (SNP).
An SNP is a Nurse with a difference - SNPs are again highly experienced, trained and qualified nurses who have been granted also the added ability to
Something quite rare indeed in my country - as prescriptions of psychiatric medications and the like are generally the realm of the
So - Mental Health, and issues such as Schizophrenia/Psychosis, are not something foreign at all.
...here however is the other place I'm coming from:
Seeing, hearing, feeling things - not that uncommon in my culture.
I myself have seen and heard things from as young as I can recall. Still do.
The difference is my perspective on it is a cultural one...in many ways its a also a spiritual one, as is the perspective of my culture.
We have a different understanding of what the experience is, what it means and how it relates to us.
As such I maintain a high level of *wellness* in standardised/Clinicalised/Westernised terms. I live well, I work well, I am well.
Yet I see and hear.
Big deal. Take a number.
While I'm absolutely fine and it doesn't negatively impact upon my day. in fact quite the reverse, it helps me within my day and my work - from a
purely clinical perspective however I would be deemed floridly psychotic.
...I know...the irony in regards to my own experiences and what I do for a living isn't at all lost here...
Hence I say to you: You are the definer of what you experience. The power rests with you.
Many people will tell you to stay on Meds, to take Meds, to get new Meds.
Many people will tell you that Meds will only make things worse, that they are no use whatsoever.
Many people will tell you its Aliens, its Ghosts, its a Spiritual experience, you're cursed, its an implant, its the NWO brainwave control etc etc
etc etc...EVERYONE will have an opinion on it.
YOUR opinion is the really the only one that matters.
Sure, I can hear some response already: "How can you say that? What if he goes psychotic and kills someone???"
Yes - that is indeed a possibility - but then thats also a possibility whether you experience 'Schizophrenia' or not.
What I'm talking about is maintaining your own self-recovery and self-discovery. Maintaining your own sense of direction and awareness within your
If I may however tender an opinion along with everyone else:
Do what works for you.
If thats meds - do it.
If thats holistic healing, massage, Bach Flower Remedies etc - do it.
If thats wrapping tinfoil around in the inside of your baseball cap - do it.
If thats a combination of everything - do it.
If thats dancing the funky chicken in your backyard - do it.
If thats seeking help and talking with *professionals* - do it.
If it keeps you well...hey...at least it saves the Drug Companies from getting richer.
Anyhoo...keep going, keep living, keep learning.