Originally posted by CleverNameHere
reply to post by LestatG
Mods, please don't delete his post, or my reply. This is actually a very important topic.
I have tried cannabis, as I had heard that it helps.
This is what happened:
I took the cannabis, and my night went from decent to terrible. The color drained from my face, the voices became more clear, and the actual physical
real people around me got dimmer.
I thought I was going to go crazy that night.
However, the next morning was beautiful. I could think more clearly. I couldn't predict the future, but it was as if a split second before something
happened, I had known it would.
In my opinion, it does help, but you can never be sure whether or not the first experience will drive you over the edge or not. I urge those who have
schizophrenia, and are looking for ways to make it better, to speak with your families before you try anything.
Myself? I do not think I will ever use cannabis, or any drug, again. The night of hell that proceeds is not worth it.
Dude, I was reading trough so many things you have said that I had to post something.
I have taken psychedlic mushrooms 3 times and in all ocasions I had a "bad trip" the last occasion I felt as if I have become bad totally insane an
schizophrenic. (It's funny how people use words like crazy and mad and you never think about the word in its true meaning because that night I have
felt the true meaning of being crazy).
It wasn't visual but it was in my head, I am a heavy thinker thinking about anything and everything and personally I think that that is my problem. I
took the shrooms and I wanted to find out the truth and meaning about living in this reality. I kept looping in a spiral that i couldn't get out, my
mind wouldn't stop thinking things and late that night I was sitting on the edge of my bed with a laugh on my face looking at my hands knowing I was
totally crazy. As I looked at my hands I had the idea that nothing exists that there is no reality and that everything around me was my own fantasy.
There was no god no other people no other world nothing! it was all one boi imagining it all!
After that experience I puked all the mushrooms on the floor of my room, what followed was the best and purest experience I have ever felt. It felt
like i was reborn I "looked" inside my mind and there was nothing! no thoughts just total bliss. That morning I felt reborn and again people realy
have no idea of the full implications of the word reborn untill you yourselff experience it. Words have meanings on many diffrent levels and people
understand them at diffrent levels.
That night I was thinking that my friends where right I shouldn't take spychedelics and that i was crazy and now my parents will have to take care of
me and lose there on and only son. The morning saved me and the routine of the next day realy brought me back to reality. I was awfully quite the
whole day and poundering about what happened and I did feel some "after" effects of that night that maybe from that point on I was crazy but I got
out of it.
Just like you said that if you get these ideas of other voices or weird reality's you simply have to calm yourself down and tell yourself that
everything will be alright.
It is said that bad trips bring insight and that night I knew what my problem was, I was trying too hard knowing the truth of reality and this world
that instead of getting closer i got farther. Sometimes you need to let it all go and simply think of nothing and let reality take you where it needs,
it will all be fine if you lose the fear.
some quotes I thought up that morning when i was "reborn":
"the whole world is schizophrenic in some way, we are all crazy and are desperate to keep the illusion before our eyes."
"Don't look for the truth, cause it will hurt you"
Dude I think you and I are similar in many ways, you should look up Terence Mckenna's talk on schizophrenics.
btw any reply to this post I can't read because I don't get notification on reply's which sucsk. so pls U2U me for a conversation or statement.