posted on Oct, 4 2009 @ 11:38 PM
Hi Clevernamehere, i'm a newbie to this site. Actually i stumbled across this site using...well, stumbleupon. Anyway, i'd like to share my
experiences of late with you. I don't know if anything that has happened to me will be of any insight or not, but from the posts i've read so far
(read about 6 pages, not all 20 yet) you seem to have gone through some very similar experiences as i have. In fact, normally my name on
messageboards is CreativeName, but i didn't want you to think i was copying, so i posted my PVP avatar name for most games i play. (I'm rambling,
My mental state is EXTREMELY similar to what you (as well as a choice few other posters) have described, and i'm curious as to the similarities of my
night in september 2007 and your night in december 2008. I'm only comfortable sharing this because its anonymous. I've never told anyone this in
Two years ago, I experimented with quite a few different hallucinatory drugs, including, but not limited to: 2CI, 2CE, 2CB (plus more of the 2C
series, but don't remember the exact ones), '___', cubensis mushrooms, and lots of cannabis. Well, it all culminated one fateful evening.
I was in a paramedic academy at the time, and was under a good bit of stress, as it was military style, strict rules, physical training daily, etc.
On the weekends, i'd do whatever i could to get my mind off of things (this is while i was still "sane"). I was also "in love" with the girl i
sat next to in class. I should mention here, that, while i've had sex with a male before (i'm not gay, long story), i've never been with a woman.
I've also never been in a relationship, never had a girlfriend, and have only fallen for/crushed on about 4 girls in my life.
After a friday night of tripping off of 2CI/2CE/2CB cocktail (i thought it was just 2CE btw, only after the fact did i fidn out i was on a myriad of
hallucinogens) i hung out with some friends that day, enjoying myself, until i called the girl in question that afternoon. She was going to a party
that evening. I told her i wanted to meet her there, and she warned me that the police were all over the place at the time. Normally (she knew this)
i would have avoided the area at all costs while on illegal substances, but alas, the cocktail had boosted my confidence to enormous proportions.
So instead of just going to the party, i decided to take another swig of the cocktail. That swig didn't hit me until after the brass knuckles
I got to the party, and after hugging her neck (we were good friends by this time, and she was well aware i was into her, but she had made it clear
early on she didn't return those feelings) we went to the party together. There were some guys crashing the party, and pissing people off.
well, things get a little complicated at this point, and if you'd like to hear all the gorey little details, i've no problem telling you, but the
important part is that i got into a confrontation with one of the guys. right after telling the girl i was a virgin (which was/still is only kinda
true). The guy pushed me, and in my overconfident state, i pushed him back, next thing a knew i was picking myself up off the ground. From what i
understand, there were four guys, at least one with brass knuckles, who jumped on me and beat me down. I should mention here that i have a bone
disease: Osteo Genesis Imperfecta. AKA brittle bones. Well it didn't take more than 1 punch from the knucks to lay me out, but the didn't stop
there. I ended up with a gash over my eye, broken nose, broken jaw, broken rib, and a missing tooth.
That was when my world changed. Logically, i'd say that i suffered a combination of possible minor brain damage supplemented by the hallucinogens,
but i'm not totally sure exactly what caused the split.
I'll finish this post in a second box, as i'm almost out of characters.