reply to post by Geladinhu
My anchor is my family. They are FANTASTIC, and have been through a lot with me. I live with my parents, as I'm not trusted to live by myself, nor do
I trust myself alone.
My parents in particular are amazing. They're very understanding, and I'm able to talk with them about my hallucinations and delusions, and they
always talk me back down to reality. It's a blessing to have them in my life.
My grand plan is to eventually write a book about my experiences as a schizophrenic. I know there are a lot of people interested in our way of life,
and how we interpret things.
With the money I make from the book(books??), I hope to set up a bank account in preparation for my future. As a schizophrenic, you never know when
you're going to completely lose it. It may never happen, it may happen twenty years from now. It makes me rest easy knowing that once it does happen,
I will have the money to take care of myself. I couldn't imagine being a sponge to the very people that've been so great and understanding about all
If I don't write a book, I'm still saving from my current job. I get great tips(and don't go out a lot, ha), so I'm able to save up all my
paychecks into an account, and that's been building up.
The last time I remember acting untypically to the point of people ignoring me, I was a kid. I usually keep to myself unless spoken to, and then I
never speak without first knowing what I'm going to say.
The greatest value is family. You don't have to have any blood-relatives alive to know what family feels like. They are the people that you know will
always take care of you, even if you don't want to(though you know you won't let that happen, if you can help it).
Never forget who your family are. They are the reason you're here today.
As far as I know, I'm 100% of the time aware and conscious. I've had no blackouts, or "glitches" where time seems to have skipped a few hours or
so. I think most schizophrenics block out a lot of what happens to them, and then they get into the habit of blocking it out, which is why their lives
can get so confusing.
Bit of advice: If you're schizophrenic, let it happen. Don't try to deny it. If you let yourself forget one time, you will never know if you've
done it 100 times before. That's when you lose your grip on reality.