posted on Aug, 23 2009 @ 11:28 PM
reply to post by loqeth
1. The dominant voice is mine, which is why I refuse meds. I'm able to remain in a half sane, half schizophrenic mindset, which is safe. I'm unsure
how many voices there are, as some days there will be more than others, but there are at least two that are always with me.
2. One voice, other than my own, actually works in my favor. Whenever the other of my two regulars talks, it is usually negative: "You will not win.
We will get you. You will have to be institutionalized eventually. You cannot escape Us." However, when the kind one speaks, it usually consists of
small inspirational comments: "Don't listen to him. We're all in your head. I will be with you no matter what."
Sometimes, I've thought that this voice is God. Other times, I like to think it's a passed loved one encouraging me to continue on my trek.
As for the other random voices, I never know what they're going to say.
3. I've spoken to mental health professionals. I am paranoid schizophrenic, but I am not violent, and have not had any psychotic episodes. It usually
remains as a constant buzz in the back of my head. Yes, you can physically feel schizophrenia in your head.
Please, ask any questions you want. I will get to them eventually, even if there are many.
I encourage curiosity.