Certainly a fascinating topic.
Within my line of work I've worked with people within Forensics Units who had *snapped* - some who just 'lost it' to the point of killing someone.
Who for that moment in time their mind just went into 'ballistic mode' and they ended up taking someones life.
They're fine now. Seriously. But it was that moment where a completely different part of themselves rose and acted.
To add a little more context:
I was raised within an environment of violence.
The usual lower-socioeconomic communities, Gangs, crime, alcohol/drugs, domestic violence...all that...
Violence was the norm. To NOT react with violence, for even the most seemingly innocuous things, was in some ways ABNORMAL. It was expected, it was
simply how things were.
As I grew older I learnt to live a different way, with a different way of being.
I guess for decades I've been suppressing that violent upbringing and that violent/rage-driven element of myself.
Channelling it instead into contact-sports such as Rugby League, MMA and other various Martial Art centred activities.
Thats why I tend to be calm in conflict/violent situations...as 1)They aren't anything new to me, and 2)No bravado intended here I assure you, and I
know I'm no Mr Bad-A$$, but I'm confident enough in my ability to handle myself if needs be. I'm 6'2'', a shade under 100kgs, fit and well
accustomed to various fighting/self-defence styles.
...fear can be a driver.
Those basic responses of Fight, Flight or Freeze come into it.
I tend not to fear for my own safety despite being in some pretty hair-raising situations - so rarely do those responses get triggered.
When they do its predominately been *fight* that gets triggered.
Those 3 basic responses can determine a WHOLE lot of what happens.
I've seen the most smallest, meakest, peaceful looking people just *snap* and go absolutely crazed.
I remember having to call in a few other Ward Staff to haul off this tiny little 5ft-nothing 60 year old lady who was pummelling the stuffing out of
this humungous 6'5'' 130kgs Samoan guy once...
The strength she had, the viciousness with it, was just incredible.
We almost had to sprain her fingers to get her to release her grip on this guy...and eventually had to hold her down with a full team restraint and
IMI her with a sedative...she was that hyped, strong and uncontrollable!