posted on Aug, 19 2009 @ 04:50 PM
I remember when my mind first made an attempt at sorting the madness that is aquiring a set of values. I set to the task of aquiring knowledge, and in
retrospect, fell time, after time, into various episodes, theories, "truths" and scandals. From Politics, Greer, to Project Camelot, Serpo, NWO,
Jaime Mausson e.t.c. Ad Nauseum.
I ran out of juice somewhere along the line, I realize this because at first, Abovetopsecret was a fountain of inspiration for me. And now, despite
still enjoying my time here immensely, I feel too much annoyance. In short, I feel people are making the mistakes I made. To believe is to be
inspired, there is usually a foundation of trust on which to cling. I seem, in arrogance, to believe that there is no longer anyone or anything I can
trust, and it leads in turn to a feeling of overwhelming apathy.
As recently as watching Jones's "Obama Deception", I realized that despite the force of the arguments, that something inside of me resisted. Not
because I believe in Obama's motives, but because here is someone else telling me what's what.
How many times can you be let down before burning out? So what do I find myself doing inadvertently? Scoffing at most of the up-and-coming ideas and
platforms. It isn't even about disinformation or deflection anymore because I believe that people, in the main, believe what they believe. It is
about our underlying abilty to be objective and resist the temptation to reach a conclusion with an unbiased eye.
There is no sense of awe, and touch any longer. I wonder and hope that I will be able to rekindle my enthusiasm for conspiracy. I'm wondering if
there are others who feel the same?