posted on Aug, 16 2009 @ 06:26 AM
I just finished this intro and was informed that my topic was already in this forum...and now I get to start again.
My name is Josh, I'm 24 years old. I'm a musician first and foremost. If it weren't for music I would think the human race to be a lucky
accident. As a child I always felt as though there was someone following or watching me. I still feel it, though it doesn't weird me out, since
I'm used to it. My family wasn't typical in any sense of the word. We weren't very close, so I became a very inward person, constantly thinking,
working things out for myself. I'm obsessed with numbers and mathematics. I believe we were "put" here. By who? No idea. Why? No idea. I
believe the truth is being obscured, and I also believe that we are on the verge of destroying ourselves. I'm not religious, but I do think that
there are some truths in different stories and texts from around the world. As my name implies, I thrive (unwillingly, as far as I know) on chaos...I
procrastinate, I don't plan ahead for anything, I threw away school to play music (which I do not regret, but it has created more turmoil). I enjoy
learning, and picking apart new ideas and looking at them from every possible angle I can manage. I'm not sure if this is appropriate, and I
apologize if it is not...I had an encounter with a controlled substance who's creator recently died (at 102 years old!!)...The only way I can explain
what i has done is to imagine all ideas/information as raindrops...and you are trying to funnel them into your head. I started with a decent funnel.
This experience has greatly enlarged my "funnel", if that makes sense.
My original post was much longer than this one, but no big deal. I look forward to absorbing all that I can, and remember, the last place you look is
always the place that holds what you seek.
[edit on 16-8-2009 by ChaosComplex]
[edit on 8/16/2009 by ChaosComplex]