posted on Aug, 13 2009 @ 04:17 PM
Here's a thread I've been meaning to start for awhile, but I just never knew how to verbalize it until last night.
I always thought that I may have a good soul, but my body/mind/flesh -whatever- just totally contradicts it (I'm not religious, so please don't
bring the bible into this - I'm aware of those passages).
Imagine how stupid I felt when I realized that it's probably not my soul fighting against my body (or vice-versa), but it's the constant
contradiction of my intellect going against my emotions. Does that make sense?
For instance - I see I will act one way in front of people, and then when I go over everything in my head later, I wished I could of acted differently
and what not.
Basically I am saying that I have a duality going on here. Anyone else know what I am talking about?
And how can you keep your emotions at bay when something is going on and truly be yourself?
I stifle 95% of my emotions when things are going on, so it really causes havoc inside. Also, I have Anxiety and Depression, so you can imagine the
feelings I feel when NOTHING (or barely anything) is going on as well!
Wow. Am I that messed up?