posted on Aug, 14 2009 @ 07:12 AM
I used to be really afraid of dying, so much so that I would get into a depressed state of mind... I had a lot of other issues as well though.
Nowadays I am more optimistic but still am a bit TOed at the whole human race side of things... but thats a different story.
Anyways, yes death... I honestly have no idea what lies on the other side.
I was raised in a Christian family and attend a Christian school but am not one at present, still thinking stuff through, etc.
I am not really afraid of death in a physical sense.
What freaks me out is the thought that one second I will be thinking, experiencing life as I have all my life, and the next... well, I don't know
what will happen.
Yes, as other have said, death is unavoidable, but I am still apprehensive about it.
This may offend some people, so a warning here, but take for example a person who is going to be executed. They know they are going to die, and do you
think they might feel a little fear? We all as humans are going to die, obviously, others just know when.
What I SERIOUSLY don't want to happen is die in my sleep.
It would majorly suck to die that way. Even though it's peaceful, whatever, don't want it to happen to me. I don't want to go to bed one night and
NEVER WAKE UP. Sure, if there is nothing after death, I have nothing to worry about, I won't even know what had just transpired, but it would still
suck suddenly being dead without realising it.
I hope you can get what I'm trying to say (Yes, I acknowledge I am rambling).
My ideal death would be on a hospital bed surrounded by family and friends. Then, I could say my goodbyes, and my last words. But, knowing life, this
will probably not happen.
Some people believe in heaven, I'm not so sure. Every religion believes they are right. There is no hard evidence that God exists. I think people
invent 'faith' as a catch-all phrase for the lack of any evidence or support for something. Where is God? He wants us to have faith, we need to have
faith, etc. I'm straying into religious territory here, getting back on track. And sorry to all Christians or other religions if i offend you, hey, I
used to be a Christian.
I think people also have religion because of their fear of death and the need to 'continue on' that everyone seems to have. Imagine this- if
churches everywhere suddenly declared that Christians would no longer go to heaven, but that they should still worship God, how many would still be
I also think that probably 50% and upwards of Christians have no integrity and are just outwardly trying to appear 'faithful'.
I can see this by just taking a look around my school at all the so-called 'Christians' who have a 'best friend that is Jesus', whilst on the
weekends go to alcohol-fuelled parties. People annoy me in this way.
Also guys who try to act alpha male and drink and smoke and then try and act like they're so tough. Well you know what, you are all imbeciles who are
ruining your lives trying to appear cool in front of and impress people who do not like you for who you are anyway. If only you could see yourself as
others do. It is not cool at all.
Wow, I am WAY off topic, but think of it this way - where were we before we were born. I would take a guess and say no-where. Why then can we as
humans not seem to accept that there might be nothing after? I think because all we have experienced is life and thinking, etc, we can not wholly
comprehend not having these things.
I have so many opinions on so many things... sometimes they interconnect. Well, if you made it throught the entire post to here, I congratulate you. I
hope you can excuse the partially insane ramblings for the content that actually benefits the topic.
So long 'til next time,