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Originally posted by TheMythLives
reply to post by ldyserenity
Your life was ruined by humans, because of bad people and the likes of them and the fakers. I propose a missions for you. What do you think of saving others from the same fate? Perhaps this is your mission. Since you have been ruined, your next choice is to either fight back or surrender. The best way to fight back, is by stopping this from happening to other people. Become someone's support. Become someone elses rock. See yourself in them and have them see you in them.
(Dunno if that quote worked)
Idyserenity, what TheMythlives said above is so correct and so important. The saddest part is that you are probably not in the right frame of mind as of yet to "fully" benefit from such wise words.
I know...I'm just some guy typing on a screen. I know I belong to a race you swore to hate and wish destroyed. I know you are so frustrated with it all that nothing I type to you is going to even begin to dent the armor you now wear.
But...please forgive me for trying, as anyone who loves the universe and life within it.
I don't have money. I don't have much more then a roof, scraps of food and family (related and not). I was bullied, limited, mocked, caged and boxed in by negative people who projected their inability towards my ability.
For years I was called many things that hurt seriously deep. ("Retarded" was the worst, it drove me to think I was defective.) I can only swear I was once fully at where you "seem" to be now. Hate, anger, repulsion, and a desire to watch it all end no matter what.
I was no friend to anyone but my own hate and disgust for everyone around me.
Naw, Jesus didn't save me. It wasn't no medication that they tried to force down my throat. It was a long, and painful process of learning how to actually love something.
I wont waste your time explaining that, unless one day you ask for such.
All I can say is that NOW I love "myself". And that is what leads to loving others (yes even the bigots, thieves and the mislead). In finding love for myself I also found new avenues to spend my energy and life down. I found peace, even with the lack of things I own.
I am in no way saying this is your destiny. far from it actually. What I am saying is "I could have never learned to love and become happy" if I wasn't able to learn a few things.
1-Those who hurt me were wrong. They were almost forced to be wrong. The world has a way of programing others to attack wounded, kick the slow moving and laugh at those who shine a little differently. They know no better.
2-I was as wrong (if not more) as they were. I was hurting myself as much as they hurt me in respect to not loving myself correctly. It wasn't my fault, but it WAS my fault in getting out of that hole. I had to crawl out of it with all my might. I am so glad I never "fully" gave up.
3-The most important feeling one can have, is the total respect of one's own self. It didn't happen overnight, but once it began it became an avalanche of self-worth. Finally, in the end I understood clearly that there was never "one me" before me, and there would surly never be another "me" exactly the same. There you find amazing power in self.
As I stated, if you seriously feel this way about your life (and all others) I'd be willing to exchange words on the subject in any forum, phone or function that we both could reach with ease. No bibles, no drugs, no violence...just debate on the meaning and worth of your mind, body and presence here on earth.
I'm sorry if this rolled your eyes. But as TheMythLives said above, its a mission.
In fact, many of us take up that mission because we remember how dark and empty that hole is and how hard it is to find the light switch in there.
After you do find it, you just want to rush back in and help those still lost.
All peace, love and wealth
Originally posted by wylekat
And RIGHT THERE we have the same metapissical CRAP I just mentioned. No. A person feels ugly when the ignorant primates around them MAKE them feel ugly.
Originally posted by ldyserenity
So here it is. I am done with humanity. I don't want to deal with anybody. I want to crawl in a hole and never be seen again. Do you want to know why? I have been robbed of everything I could have been and everything I could have had. And do you know what? I am holding a grudge, # forgiveness, # enlightenment, I don't care any more. If you think I haven't been robbed, well when people in your school when you're still young(from Kindergarden on up) and very impressionable call you ugly and a loser and that you will never go anywhere in life, well you beleive it and it does become a self fulfilling prophecy. Then to have parents who tell you you will never get into college because you aren't serious about education, even after you stayed in High school and had to repeat 11th grade because you cut so many times the first time around because High school was hell, they still don't see you really are serious about college and decide they're just not going to pay for it. On top of that they screw you out of financial aid because they claim you as a dependant on their income tax that year. Then what the # do you think you'll ever amount to...I will tell you...like me a bitter, angry, person who has no happiness and no propspects and no way out of hell. I don't care if any of you think I am a whiner and to get over it already, I tell you, I won't! My life was ruined by human beings everyone I came in contact with, so They and their cohorts are less than insects to me. I deleted my facebook and myspace accounts cause all of these people have the gull after ruining my life to then try to add me on their friends list. Well I am disgusted people don't realize what the heck they did, nor do they even care. So I'd be happy if the world did come to an end, hell if I could push the d*** button I would! I hate humans!
Originally posted by eMachine
I am honestly terrified of sending my daughter to school... she is to be enrolled in kindergarten this year... kids today are even meaner than they were when I was in school.
For example... my daughter used to play in our yard, on her swingset, and our neighbor's daughter would come over to play with her everyday. They were best friends... my daughter would talk about her friend all the time... one day, she even asked if she could marry her!
Then our upstairs neighbor had her grandchildren (3 boys) staying with her for a month or so, and they would come down and play with my daughter too. One day my daughter came inside bawling... she told me that one of the boys told her that her best friend said she was ugly! She was completely heartbroken.
It was just a little event, her first experience with 'gossip' I guess... what troubles me most, is I didn't know how to help a barely-4yr old rationalize someone lying and being mean for no reason...
Part of me wanted to use that old line my grandma used to tell me when I tried to talk to her about people teasing me: "They're just jealous"... but I never bought that as a kid, so I shouldn't confuse her with it.
I don't know how I will help her deal with it if we end up sending her to public school...
Originally posted by noonebutme
Originally posted by ldyserenity
So here it is. I am done with humanity. I don't want to deal with anybody. I want to crawl in a hole and never be seen again.
I don't care if any of you think I am a whiner and to get over it already, I tell you, I won't!
So I'd be happy if the world did come to an end, hell if I could push the d*** button I would! I hate humans!
Well, if that's the case, then what are you doing posting this diatribe to us all?
If you don't care what anyone thinks and no one can change your mind, then why bother telling us? What will it accomplish? I can only assume you are telling us this because you want some form of acceptance, reassurance and a metaphorical hug. Which is fine - and like the others, I'd suggest to use all the anger and bitterness as a strength and push yourself upwards instead of letting it drag you down.
Otherwsie, the post by LiveForever8 says it all, me thinks.
[edit on 10-8-2009 by noonebutme]
Originally posted by fapython
And you may )ust get your wish if the 2012 theories are to be believed like this