posted on Aug, 5 2009 @ 10:45 AM
I’ve been homeless, afraid, not sure where my next meal would come from and my last so far behind me my stomach was sticking to my ribs.
I walked by a McDonalds and the smell made me insane with hunger.
Outside on the park benches a woman sat with her poodle (yes I know it sounds like a cliche but...) - Anyway she was breaking up pieces of this
cheeseburger and giving pieces of it to her dog.
I just stopped in my tracks and stood their watching her with tears running down my face and I couldn’t of talked if I’d tried.
She gave me the *shoo shoo* hand, the flick of the wrist to go away and turned back to *FiFi* with a look on her face as if to say, pay no attention
to the homeless.
I was a 14.
Later when I found some yummies in a dumpster I THANKED GOD and cried so hard I couldn’t see straight.
I promised myself I would rather go hungry then end up like her.
Of course I’ve had an eating disorder since, lol, but, I’m working on that too.
Now, years later, life is better.
I’m telling you the story so you know I’m not just talking out of my hat.
I’m trying to give you hope so you know things will change and to let you know there is hope...There is always hope.
Do all you can to resist giving in to despair...
Never, ever ever, no matter what, give up hope.
I can say that - I earned the right to say it.
I’m sorry I’m so far away from you that I can’t help physically, but, I’ll keep you and yours in my prayers and hope your life takes a turn
for the better, much better soon.
I think we’re going to be hearing a lot more of these stories on ATS, and sooner than people think, but, no matter people, don’t give up hope.
Sincerely and with love and a profound respect for you in your situation,